Lost in you(Lesbian Story girlxgirl) slowly editing

Chapter 7

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The weekend passes & all I did was think about everything that has been happening for the last week.I'm too young to be feeling this way & I have to learn to control my emotions.One hour I feel like tearing his head right off of his body & an hour later I want him to come home to say I love you,giving me kisses all over my neck & body.He's everything I have,I don't have friends & my mother is almost never home so if I leave him,who will I have?
It's seven forty & I'm going to be late for school.

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"Hey hey!" Victoria finds me sitting down on the cafeteria.I wave & finish eating my peanut butter & jelly sandwich,I haven't had the appetite.

"You alright?" She tucks my hair behind my ear & looks at me.I don't know if she really worries for me or if she's one of those people who likes to know everything & likes to gossip but right now all I need is someone to listen,someone that can hear me out & let me cry on their shoulders because it feels  bad when you keep everything to yourself & even  worse when you have no one else you seek for help.

"I don't know." Just when I let the words come out I realize how right I am,I don't know if I'm okay or if I'm sad.This void in my chest is eating me up I know how stupid I am to believe someone loved me when in reality all I was told were lies,our friendship & relationship were lies & at this point I really can't decide whether to feel okay or not because I don't know.She throws her arm over my shoulders & pulls me closer to her,resting her chin on my head.

"Leo,I know how hard it can be but you should never let them get to you...specially now,enjoy your senior year." I look up & she sees that I start to tear up,I'm very emotional.

"He said that I wasn't good enough to be with him.You know how insecure I feel? Or how humiliated I felt when I found that I was on speaker & his friends heard our conversation?Like,he's such a douche" I sob harder & hold her chest close,burying my face on her neck.It feels really uncomfortable knowing that we both just started hanging out but right now all I feel is a relief knowing that she won't push me away & that this is better than being by myself crying.I can't look at her but by the way she is breathing is unsettling,she seems anxious or angry I'm not sure.

"Why did he do it?"

"I think it was to impress his friends?" I sound unsure,I am unsure.What if he meant it? Victoria stays quiet which worries me.

"Are you okay?" I look up & she's biting down her lip,cheeks red & eyes darted on someone.When I look at her direction I knew what she was angry about,it's Mathew.

"Leo I swear to God I'm going to leave him toothless!" She's fisting her hands & stands to confront him.Oh no!

"Victoria no offense but this is none of your business..."I stand in front of her holding her arms & looking straight into her hazel eyes.They don't light up when she's angry,its rather scary to look at them.

"You already told me what happened so technically it is" she pushes me gently aside & skips through the crowd of people Mathew was with.I run after her & hold her hand,pulling her to me.

"Please Victoria,I don't want more drama."

"What?Are you waiting for the day that he bust down a door for you apologizing For being a terrible boyfriend?Are you waiting for him to change?Let me tell you something,this is highschool & while he's here he will humiliate & bully any fucking person to impress his so called friends.Who knows maybe he will change when he gets out here but right now he will continue to be a lost cost.You will be treated the same as you have been for the last few days & I know you deserve better,you fucking know that.You're so blinded by him that you don't want to look at the things he has done to you, because you're afraid you might be alone... but you met me,okay?And I will do anything to prove how good of a friend I can be...Starting now." I let her hand go in defeat.It is true,I'm afraid to be alone for the rest of the school year & I know she meant everything she said.I'm so tired of pretending to be fine, of feeling mistreated & I'm tired of being hurt.She takes his shirt & slam him against the locker,she looks beyond piss & everyone turns around to look at me expecting to do something about it but instead I stay put & watch.I feel a bit embarrassed but I want to see this,to see how Mathew reacts to a girl standing up to him & giving him a piece of her mind.