Lost in you(Lesbian Story girlxgirl) slowly editing

Chapter 12

(I'm sorry my chapters are short but soon I'll be better,I just got the phone and I'm getting the hang of it.I added the chapter I wrote before in this one because it was too short to even be a chapter so yeah,here you go.Chapter real 12!!!!!

Bye.:)
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"What do you think of the movie with Adam Sandler?" Victoria asks,surfing Netflix

"Which one?And hell no,I hate that actor."

"You're right,let's watch friends" she suggests and I nod agreeing . I've been with her this weekend and I found myself enjoying the company. She some how calms me down and keeps me on track, she's a kind hearted girl.

On my week of heart breaks and demented brain,I came to the realization that life goes on.I am hurt over what Mathew did to me and yes,he hurt me bad but I can't dwell on it so much.I have so much going on for me in life that this so called 'drama' is as tiny as an ant.

"Hey Victoria,I'm sorry about the kiss." I give her an apologetic look. I like the girl and no,not that way.But the way that I could sit on the couch for hours and talk about my biggest fear,my goals in life and everything.

"Don't worry about it." She looks away embarrassed and frowns.

"I think I should.You have been the one there for me and I treated you like nothing." And it was true.She was the only one putting up with my fucked up relationship,she let me toy up with her to make me feel better and its wrong.It's very,very wrong.

"Listen I really like you but I know you're not a lesbian  so I don't even try."

"Then let's date." I say aloud without thinking.

"W-what?" Her voice barely audible. I've thought about this for a while now. Maybe it wouldn't be much of a bad idea to switch something up in my life and who knows,maybe I prefer women over man.I am willing to try this with her to make up for the time I foolishly kissed her without a warning and because I'm tired of snooty little assholes breaking my heart over and over again.Victoria was nice and thoughtful,special to me and I know how special I am to her now.

"But you don't like girls." She looks down.It's like I could read her by just looking,she felt unsure about this,about me.

"True..." I pause for a second,then I continue "But I like you."

I don't know if what I just said was real but I was determined to find out if she could be the remedy.I always looked at Mathew and saw a future but now all I see is a dark empty room with me sobbing  on the concrete floor,reminiscing on the times where he and I were happy.I am over this burden on my chest,I'm ready to move on and please myself by giving me what I need.If she is what I need.Victoria gave it one last thought before glaring back at me.She was happy and confused,overall scared.I know what it felt like,to feel insecure and used but I wouldn't dream of doing that to her.She is sweet and pretty,she is every guy's-girl's dream and I really want to give her a shot of being happy with me too.

"So what are we then?" Victoria smiles widely,grinning from ear to ear and pulling down her hair.

"For now,nothing." She frowns again but I continue, "I mean,we are dating so that's a start." I smile and sit beside her,intertwining my fingers unto hers and kissing the end of her cheek.

Her cheeks flaired a shade of pink and it caused me to laugh,

"So Victoria,tell me about your life." I ask and she told me endless stories of her childhood.

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What is love?

what is it?

So many questions and no answers.Victoria is a very genuine and intelligent young lady but I don't love her,I'm pretending and that's the one thing I didn't want to do.I'm trying really hard to smile and laugh at her jokes every time she's around,kiss her but I'm not fully satisfied with her attention.