Lost in you(Lesbian Story girlxgirl) slowly editing

Chapter one

(This is the song I picture her when she thinks of him)

I sit on my usual spot in the bleachers minding my business, chewing on gummy bears while my boyfriend Mathew finishes practice. He's the love of my life. He has wavy brown hair & green eyes, he's physically fit & sometimes I find myself thinking 'why is he with me?Why not one of those easy girls that practice their cheer leading routine?' I'm guessing he must really like me because unlike them, I respect myself. Enough of that!
I really want to kiss him.

We've been together for almost 10 months now & tomorrow is our anniversary. Although I always hated these kind of things I celebrated them because he was the type of guy who really appreciated every single damn moment. Whether that'd be Christmas or him going on to his football games, he never wanted to miss a thing. It bores me sometimes. All we do on our monthaversary is have sex & even if it feels good for an hour or so, it doesn't feel special at all. Hes changed & it really makes me feel uneasy.

As soon as he finishes packing his gear he approaches me.

"Leo Parkinson."He presses his lips into mine.

"Mathew James,you look exhausted." I open my arms & extend them to hug him. He smells of sweat. It may be a little unbearable but I don't really mind, I love him.

"I actually am. I got you this!"

He hands me a red box with a bow on top. When I open it I find a card that reads:

^From me to you for tomorrow.-Mat^

"That is too sweet babe, you didn't have to!" I hug him with the gift still in hand & a brief kiss on his wet face. When I play through the wrapping paper, disappointment crosses through me & I'm left heart broken by seeing what was that the box held. This was the first time he has ever given me an actual gift & knowing what  it was makes me feel less of a woman to him and to myself.

"lingeire?" I look into his eyes only to see his carnal glare. I feel so dumb sometimes letting myself get in these situations & not actually standing up to say how I feel but I just want to make him happy. I look down to the lingeire that is black & red .Mathew takes his hand & lift my chin up so my eyes met his.

"Leo you're going to look so hot. I promise you!"

"Can't we do something a bit different? Like...a picnic or go to the movies?" I gave him a weak smile but quickly look away to cover my embarrassment knowing I never had the courage to request anything in fear of what his reaction might be.

"Leo I wasted almost thirty bucks on this for you to wear it, I don't have any more money left & I thought you'd be okay with what we usually do every time we hang out." Mathew frowns and sighs, proving me once again that it has to be his way or no way. He seems dissapointed so instead of giving him headaches, I agree to his proposal. It's funny because everytime he celebrates any other holiday or anniversary of some kind, he makes sure to make it feel special. Not with me but with his parents and friends or football team. He always goes out of his way to make it feel like it's the most important thing in his life.

He's the only person who's ever made me feel all type of ways at once but lately our lack of communication have had us falling off the wagon lately & the thought really hurts,

I wont think about this today.

I love him & that's all that matters.

"Hey Mat...I love you!" I smile & blow him a kiss.

"Me too babe." He hugs me, gives me a swift kiss & then walks away with one of his friends Nathaniel, "I'll catch up with you later, I got things with the boys today!"

I hate how he says me too instead of just blurring it out like I do. I pour my heart out to him, give him alot of my undivided attention & lately he's pushing me aside to hang out with his friends. Specially that asshole Nathaniel.

Who cares?!

the only thing that matters is that we are still together.

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Walking down the hall I take out my phone to see if I've gotten any messages.

Mat hasn't tried talking to me so I assume his too busy with Nathaniel. I decided to text him first anyways only because I know he wouldn't take the initiative. I start sending him a cute message & a smile formed in my face once I hit send.

*Mat I really love you. I wouldn't imagine a day without you, hell! It's only been an hour & I'm already going insane haha!!! Hope you have a good day with your pal. Again, I love youuu!<3*

*Okay babe thx...I'll pick you up at seven tomorrow.Can't wait to see you all dressed up for me.(;*

My grin disappears when i read that, maybe I over think this alot or maybe it's him. I give him all my attention & time but all he seems to think about is watching me dance on that little fabric. My blood is boiling & I'm starting to sweat, why can't he give a pass to sex & talk to me? Show me some love?

I'm just overreacting,
he loves me & I love him.

When I'm about to reply I bump my shoulder into someone.

"Mira donde caminas!" A high pitched voice yells. Her accent was strong, by the looks of it I can tell she's spanish with her curly hair & tan skin. She is really pretty though, and I fight the urge to ask where's she's from.

She doesn't look like your typical teenage girl, she was wearing tight black jeans & a long sleeve Blue shirt with grey converse. Her eyes were hazel & she wore alot of eye liner which actually added to her look and made her look even prettier.

After a minute or two of staring down at her she coughed,

"I'm sorry I was distracted & didn't see you there."

"Next time eyes on where you're walking,alright?" She teased & gave me a half smile.

"Roger that." She walk right pass me & I could smell her perfume. Cherries. mom's favorite perfume & my favorite scent aside from Mathew's cologne.

*???*

Mathews takes me back to reality & I answer his message as fast as I got his message.

*You don't have to wait...meet me at my house tonight at 9pm.Mom will be busy at her meeting!(;*

I honestly don't want to spend my anniversary with him tomorrow, I want to lay back on my bed & watch a marathon of How I met Your Mother.