It's always been you (a Harry Styles fanfic)

'He's the one looking like a fool now.'

'This is..' He couldn't find any words so instead he turned to four other boys. 'Hey guys! Err, this is Lacy. We.. we went to school together.'

We went to school together. That was probably the most awful sentence he had ever said. So that was what I was for him now? Just a girl that he went to school with. Not his best friend. Not his better half like he always claimed I was. Not the girl he had known since he was only a few months old. No. I was someone he went to school with. While I was processing every thought in my head I was shaking four hands from four boys while Harry said some words and I just assumed they were names. I didn't look at them I just kept my eyes locked on Harry, too afraid to move. Suddenly someone behind me coughed loud and fake and I realized it was Eliza. I didn't look at her.

'Oh and this is Eliza, her best friend.' He added. From the corner of my eye, I saw that Eliza also shook their hands and said hello. I'd finally processed my thoughts and I wasn't paralyzed anymore. My legs weren't weak anymore, but ready to run. My heart started beating very fast from the anger I felt inside me. I couldn't control myself. I wanted to hurt him so bad just like he had hurt me. I wanted to say something to him that would make him feel awful about himself.

'It's good to see you again.' He said smiling. This was my chance.

'Really? Well, that makes one of us because I had hoped to never see your face ever again.' I spat at him. Harry's smile disappear and made space for a shocked expression. I couldn't imagine what was going on in his head right now. what he felt. but I joped it was shame, guilt and confusion. I was happy that my words had come through to him, so I took Eliza's arm and made my way through the crowd. We walked until we were out of sight and then Eliza stopped me.

'Lace are you okay?' She asked worried.

'Yeah, I'm fine.' I didn't want to meet her gaze now, so I looked into the distance.

'Have you any idea what you just did? There were like 20 paparazzi's out there. It's gonna be all over the news tomorrow!' She was getting anxious in my place.

'I. Don't. Care.' I paused with every word hoping the message would be clear. I was still so furious that there was no room for other feelings.

'What happened? I've never heard you say anything like that! You already feel guilty when you raise your voice.'

'Anger brings the worst in me above.'

'Lace I'm so sorry. It was because of how he described you wasn't it? I was shocked too.'

The anger i'd felt made room for sadness and I couldn't help but crying. Eliza must have seen this coming because she locked me in her arms immediately.

'Oh Lacy.. I'm so sorry.' She said with sympathy.

'It's just.. I thought I meant more to him, you know?' I pulled away and wiped my tears.

'I know.. But if he doesn't want to be your friend, that's his loss. You're amazing and fun and cool to be with, so he's the one who should be crying.' I managed to conjure a smile on my face.

'So what do you want to do now?' She asked unsure what to say. I had to think about this for a second. I was suddenly feeling very tired and not in the mood to socialize.

'Err, I think I'm just gonna go home. Sorry..' I apologized.

'It's OK, I understand.' She smiled and then hugged me one last time. 'And remember: he's not worth your tears sweety.' She then turned around and walked into the direction of her house. I stood there for a few seconds and then made my way through the crowded shopping streets. While I was walking I thought back about what had just happened. Harry stepping on my toes and that he didn't recognize me immediatly. The way he'd described me and the pain I felt through my chest when he said that. I was analysing every second of that moment and when I was done I found myself standing in a park. Not just A park, THE park where Harry and I used to go. Where our parents always took us to play on the swings when we were kids. And when we were teenagers we went there for picnics or walks. We've made a lot of memories here and they all came back to me as I was standing there. I don't know why my legs had guided me to this place, but they didn't seem to work now. After a few seconds I managed to move my feet towards the swings and without thinking about it I sat down on one of them. It was only now that I realized how much I missed him. But I couldn't. I didn't want to, so I didn't let myself. I finally found the strength to stand up, walk out of the park and leave the swings and our memories behind me.

After a walk that seemed to take forever, I finally arrived home and plopped myself down on the couch. My dad walked into the living room wearing an apron.

'Hey sweety, had a nice day?' He asked. I thought about the horrible things that had happened today like bumping into Harry and telling him what was on my mind. Sitting on the swings realizing I miss him. But I couldn't tell my dad bout it.. Not yet.

'Yeah, it was great.' I said and faked a smile.

'Good. Dinner in 10.' I nodded and he walked out of the living room back in the kitchen. I dropped my shopping bags off in my room and changed in one of my 'lazy outfits' http://www.polyvore.com/lazy_is_my_middle_name/set?id=67078605

All of a sudden my phone rang, it was Eliza. I let it ring twice and then picked up.

'Hey El.' I greeted her.

'Hey, how are you?'

'I'm fine.' I sighed while plopping down on my bed. She was quiet for a few seconds.

'You did the right thing you know.' She said. ' He deserved that scolding.'

'Then why don't I feel better?'

'I don't know, but you should. He's the one looking like a fool now.'

'Lace, dinner!' My dad yelled from downstairs.

'Eliza, i've got to go, byee.'

Without waiting for an answer I hung up and walked downstairs. My dad was already sitting at the dinner table and I sat down in front of him. Luckily he didn't mention Harry or anything that involves him because I knew I couldn't handle that. Instead we just talked about simple things. How our day went and we discussed about what I could and couldn't do when he left for his business trip. There weren't a lot of rules because he trusted me and he knew I wasn't stupid. So it were just basic rules like no drugs, no party's, not going to bed after midnight, which I didn't do anyway.

My evening consisted only out of watching tv, listening to music and being on my computer. I tried to keep myself busy so I didn't have to think about today, but I was too tired to do anything so I just went to bed early.