Falling In Reverse pumps through the stereos as Andy laughs at my corny joke. "see? I'm funny." he glances over at me.
"funniest chick I know." I smile cheesily at him. "you sure your parents won't get mad for being out so late?" I take a glance at the clock. in our 'thirty more minutes' we ended up spending two hours. I shrug.
"I'm eighteen now, they can't say shit." he laughs at me.
"my big eighteen year old is all grown up."
"and now we're legal." he laughs at my comment. "you're very giggly tonight." I point, making him laugh.
"I'm just happy, sue me."
"fine, I will. I'm suing you for all your cuddles and kisses." I looks at me as we come up to a red light, fondness all over his face.
"God dammit." he breaths. my heart drops.
"what? what's wrong Andy?"
"I'm so in love with you." I feel a blush creep up on my cheeks as the light bathes us in green. if we hadn't spent the next five seconds looking at each other, maybe it would've turned out different.
"I love you too Andrew Dennis Biersack." he laughs at my small, timid voice. it was the only time I've ever said 'I love you' to anyone. we go on through the light; except we didn't. my whole life flashes before my eyes as drunk driver hits my side of the car.
my sixteen birthday party; I dressed up as a female Andy. my mom was filming for her 'home movies' again.
"Max, tell future you what's going on." Mom says as I finish a conversation with Kyle. I roll my eyes.
"are you seriously filming again?"
"of course I am, my baby's sixteen." I roll my stupid, teenage eyes again. the gate creeks open and I chalk it up to some guests coming out back.
"hi future me, I'm sixteen year old you." I lean close to the camera. "I have some words for you. if you're not married to Andy Biersack by the time you're watching this, you've fucked up."
"Max." Mom gasps. I laugh and continue.
"also, make sure Kyle and you get in touch again if you haven't been in touch for awhile, kay?"
"tell Max from the future what today is and who you are and everything."
"well, today is our sixteenth birthday, I'm dressed up as a female Andy Biersack. also, Mom says that there's a giant surprise for me. I don't know." I shrug my shoulders. Kyle taps my shoulder and I glance at him. "yes?" shock is written across is face. "what's up?" he points behind me, totally speechless and it's only now that I realize that everyone's dead silent in a awe-stuck shock. I turn around and see the last pair of eyes I thought I'd ever see in my life. a bright, vibrant blue with the sparkle of life still aflame in them. the eyes I just said I love you to. "holy. shit." I breath. Andy laughs; intoxicating me with his melody. "you're... I... God." his whole band laughs along with him.
"happy birthday Max." Andy says, giving me a hug, along with the rest of the band. I'm so awe-struck that the rest of the time is a blur, except for the two minutes Andy and I got alone in the kitchen. it was magical and spontaneous and, rebellious. we kissed and I can still remember how my mind went completely blank and I felt as if I was on air.
the car finishes it's first flip as I remember my eighteenth birthday; three months ago.
"Maxine." Mom calls from downstairs.
"just a second, I still changing." I pull on my black high tops and look myself over again. this is the first time I get to see Andy since he left on tour. I hop downstairs, my skirt flying up a bit. "the eighteen year old has arrived." I poke my nose at Mom's camera. "I'm eighteen now, what do you think about that older me?" I've gotten so use to it that it's second nature talking to my future self. "are you married to Andy yet?" I ask casually as I try to go to the kitchen.
"hey missy, you know you're no allowed in there on your birthday." Mom scolds playfully.
"but I want pudding." I whine. "I made tapicoa last night."
"hold the camera, I'll be back."
Andy came home, we kissed, we told everyone. I recall the warm feeling I got that night in my stomach for the first time as the car starts it's second roll. Andy and I didn't just 'fuck' we bonded. our souls intertwined and I fell so madly in love with him.
the car stops and I slowly fade out. the last words out of my mouth are, 'I love you Andy.'
