The New DX Member

In Denial Part 2 - Unedited

Dear Diary,

He Hates me.

It's been awhile huh? I forgot I even had this thing until this morning. People say it's best to not hold everything in so let's do what I used to do, write it all down. 

I knew this was going to happen eventually, I honestly hoped it never would but it happened. He hates me. Hate is a strong word and I rarely use it because I never really hate anyone. I dislike people and some of their choices and opinions but I would never hate them just for having a different life stye, Unless you know they were a murder or something but that's besides that point. I've lost a good friend. A brother figure that's sent me a lot of light and believed in me when I didn't believe in myself just because of one stupid mistake. Well that's what I think caused it, Unless he's always hated me and just put on a front until he couldn't take it anymore. I think it all started with me dating Randy. I knew he didn't like the guy like most of my friends but I didn't know he despised him that much. I know he was just looking out for me but I just wish he thought about my feelings. Then I accidently pushed Stephanie whilst she was pregnant but I didn't know that. How could I have known when we never spoke to each other? Yes I regret it deeply but did they really have to put me in a match against Rikishi? RIKISHI! Do you know how big and strong that man is? Let's just say that he completely destroyed me which I was fine with because half way through the match I stopped feeling my body and I was just completely numb like my mind. He had to do what he had to do to keep his job. I get that, I totally get that. He came and apologized which was so nice! I consider him a friend and his sons now who by the way are getting into the buisness s that should be cool. I'm thankful that Jeff and Matt came out even though they didn't need to. But either way I'm glad they did. I wonder if Hunter would of thought differently if he knew why I had run so fast out of Vince's office.Probably not I mean it was his wife that said the awful thing. I can't even repeat it, I mean. Gah I have to other why's it's going to eat me up. 

"No wonder Rose did that to you!" Was the exact words she said. I don't even want to think about that conversation. She did come and apologize later but I guess it was my fault.

I just wish he could forgive me. 

Maybe not hate me?

Maybe things could go back to normal? Well not completely back since he does know one deep secret of mine but maybe we could talk again without it blowing up into a huge fight?

Maybe we could be friends again?

Probably not..

At least I have memories of us being together before it all went down the drain. Brothers and Sisters fight but not like this, I guess. Jamie and I never used to fight but I guess it's because we had more important things to worry about. I think I might visit Jamie...Visit mom too..I don't know.

Alright, I hope tomorrow's better. 

Love, JadeXx

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Hunter sat confused. He placed the journal back on the table and stared over at Edge who raised an eyebrow and propped his legs up onto the table. 

"What did I just read?" Hunter asked a little mad.

"Jade's feelings about you" Edge informed him making Hunter let out a frustrated sigh.

"I got that but why did you want me to read it?" He asked even more confused and slightly ticked off. 

"Hey, This isn't that bad" Jeff spoke up making all heads turn to him. He smiled sheepishly and placed the journal back on the table.

"I know" Edge replied a small smirk on his face.

"Then why did you make out it was?" Shawn asked. Edge replied with a roll of the eyes.

"It was the only way to get him to read it" Edge explained which satisfied everyone well not Hunter. 

"Probably the only time I'll ever say this but smart" Matt complimented him. The whole sentence making him alomsot vomit at the thought of being friends with him. 

Edge replied with a nod before turning back to Hunter. Who was glaring at him from across the table. He huffed getting up from the table. He grabbed his bag off the ground and flung it on his back.

"Look the moral of this whole situation is that Jade is in a bad way and if we don't find a way to help her she might do something to herself" Edge informed him in the process grabbing the journal off the desk. 

"Who are you telling now?" Punk asked still unsure of what was happening. 

"Her sister" Was the end of the conversation as Edge walked out of the room.

As he left everyone went into their own little world, Just thinking. Everyone was thinking about the same person not that they had to tell anyone. Hunter couldn't wrap his head around anything. He was just so confused. He had noticed some things different with Jade but just assumed it was because of Randy so he shrugged it off. But was Edge and everyone including Jade implying that it might be his fault? No. It was her choice to ditch the rest of us and it was her choice to be with that scumbag even though we warned her. What deep secret do I know about her? He couldn't remember the answer to that and neither did Jeff. Jeff knew quite a bit about Jade but he didn't know this he was just hoping Hunter would come around. He knew Hunter was stubborn though, Very stubborn. But they had to try, for Jade's sake. 

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Hello Friends!

Once again not the end of this chapter juust hold on.

I have a massive headache so sorry if it's not that good!

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Love Always,

JadeXx