ESCAPE FROM REALITY.

Chapter 2.

I dream in color. Some days, where I can't feel anything but sadness or pain, my dreams turn grey, and every single color fades into a dull black and white background. My mind is like a grey and white tv show, processing things slowly. And at the same time, fading out with a buzz. She made me like this. I would've been normal, if it wasn't for Her. She is my own protector, my light, my love. She is my enemy, the darkness of the night, and my fears in one. This may not make sense now, but while i keep telling my story you'll understand.

I'm never sure of what I am. I'm an animal, yet a human. They are not the same, according to Her standards of me. The things I see when I look in the mirror, are ugly and foolish, yet beautiful in every single way possible. In the mirror, Her views has constructed me to be flawless, physically. Emotionally, I am a wreck. Isn't everyone like this? Isn't it completely normal to feel pain in every way yet numb at the same time?

Anyways. I should stop complaining. I've felt this way before, and I will continue to feel it till the end of time. My only wish, is to one day feel happy and be free, like how it was when I was young. Everything was much simpler when I was younger, I wasn't mixed up by Her. Isn't it like that for everyon? Everyone wants to feel how they felt as a child, carefree and completely joyful over the simplest things. However, when you're a child, or even at any age you want to grow up.. Once you grow up, it's not what you expected. When you reach your teenage years, you're bounded by Her and the world comes crashing down on your shoulders, like waves against the shore. This isn't some fairytale, this is real. This is real life, and be prepared to fight. This isn't a fantasy, this is me. This is what I have to say, and you WILL listen. You've started this, now you have to finish it. You're trapped, welcome to my world.