ESCAPE FROM REALITY.

Chapter 5.

There's no concept of time here. I'm stuck, in this version of Hell. I've been here, for who knows how long. Only the gatekeepers tell the time, and they don't care to tell us. Thankfully, I feel free from Her. On the other hand, I know I won't be free until I die. Thing is, I don't want to die, no matter how bad She is, or seems. The human body is too beautiful to let go to waste. The seemingly blue veins, our pulsing heart, the movement of the body whenever we're anxious. Tears, when they trickle down our faces' and how blurry our vision gets when we're upset. Not everyone can tell you, that their body is perfect. 

But I can tell you one thing. Something you dislike the most about yourself, is that something that another person will love. I'm still accepting my physical appearance, who I am on the outside. Not everyone fully loves their body. Place two fingers on the side of your neck. Feel that? You're breathing. You're alive. And I am so, so proud of you. You've made it this far and have made it through all of your worst days, no matter what you've been through. This chapter may not change your view on things, but thanks to you, I've changed. I'm still on the road to recovery, and I'm still going. She will never be gone, and neither will I. 

I'm here, I'm alive, I'm breathing. And it's staying that way, thanks to you and your support. I've found a way to be happy and i hope I can make you happy, too. You are worth it, no matter how much your brain tells you otherwise. Your feelings are valid, you are valid. And I'm so proud of you, like I've said before. Congratulations my friend, you've made it. Plus, you're one step closer to discovering who She is. Keep going, and don't give up.