Secret Romance (IM5 Colton)

Chapter 18.

*Thursday, November 22nd 2012*

*Cole*

It's been a week since Dalton's break down and he's been a little distant. I mean yeah, he still laughs with us and has fun with us but whenever it's just me and him, he's a lot different. I think he's still a little shaken up.

I called him in the morning to see if he wanted to hang out.

Dalton: Hey.

Cole: Hey, can I come over?

Dalton: Sure.

Cole: Great, I love you.

Dalton: I love you too.

He hung up so I went down to my car. I can't stop thinking about the cuts on his wrists whenever I see him. It really hurt me to see him with them last week but he said he's going to stop so I just hope he does.

I arrived not long after and saw he was wearing a long sleeved shirt.

Cole: "How can you wear that? It's so hot outside."

Dalton: "I'm not hot."

He pulled the sleeves down slightly and then I sat down beside him.

Cole: "Are you okay? You've been acting different since last week."

Dalton: "I'm fine."

I looked at him and he sighed.

Dalton: "Okay, I'm still a little bit depressed."

Cole: "Baby-"

Dalton: "I know I have no reason to be and I know you guys love me but I can't help it. It's the way I always feel but it's a little stronger right now."

I took one of his hands and laced our fingers together.

Cole: "I know it is baby, I understand that and that's one of the reasons I love you so much."

He looked at me with a confused look on his face.

Dalton: "What do you mean?"

Cole: "I love how you're so different and I know that being depressed isn't a good thing so I love you to make you feel better. That's not the only reason I love you but it's one of the reasons."

Dalton smiled at me so I smiled back.

Dalton: "And you do really help me."

I smiled again and kissed him. I put my hand on his left wrist and he winced into my lips. I immediately pulled away from him and looked down at it.

Cole: "Dalton, you didn't..."

Dalton: "Cole, I-"

I cut him off by pulling his sleeve up and I saw some fresh cuts. A tear fell from my eye and landed on his wrist. He tilted my head up and made me look at him.

Dalton: "Don't cry, please. I'm so sorry."

I shot of the bed and stared at him.

Cole: "The hell you are!"

Dalton: "Baby-"

Cole: "No. Don't 'baby' me. Dalton you promised you'd stop! You promised more than once! Do you understand how much it hurts me when you cut? Do you understand how much I love you and how much I hate to see you hurt?"

Dalton: "I do."

Cole: "Then why the fuck are you still doing it?! Why?!"

Dalton's eyes were filling with tears and it made me start to cry.

Cole: "I know you're depressed, I know you're not happy but you don't need to cut!"

Dalton: "I-I'm sorry..."

Cole: "If you were really sorry, you would have stopped when you promised you would."

Dalton: "I tried Cole... I really did but it was too hard. I have no reason to stop."

Cole: "So I'm not a reason to stop? Me hurting isn't a good enough reason to stop? Am I not worth it?"

He sat in silence and it broke my heart and made me cry even more.

Cole: "Call me when you have an answer."

I walked out of the room and went down to my car. As soon as I got in, I burst out crying.

*Dalton*

Cole walked out on me... He really did... God I'm such an idiot! I should have answered him. Of course he's worth it but it's just hard. I went over to the window and saw his car sitting outside with him inside, crying his eyes out. I felt my heart break into a million pieces and I wanted to go to him but I couldn't move. He wiped his eyes and then his car went off down the street. My bedroom door opened and Sophie walked in.

Sophie: "What happened? Cole ran downstairs crying."

Dalton: "I don't want to talk about it."

Sophie: "Dalton, you know you can tell me anything right?"

I looked at her and nodded. She smiled slightly at me and left the room, leaving me alone with my tears.

*Cole*

I drove to Will's house while trying not to cry and knocked on the door. He opened it a second later and pulled me in.

Will: "What's wrong?"

Cole: "Dalton. He cut again!"

Will: "What? But he promised."

Cole: "I know. I asked him why he did it he said he didn't have a reason to stop. Apparently I'm not a good enough reason because when I asked, he didn't reply. So I left. I walked out on him Will, I'm such an idiot!"

I latched onto him and cried into his shoulder. He hugged me and rubbed my back.

Will: "I'm sorry Cole, I know you're upset but think about how hard this must be on Dalton. He's depressed already but now you, the only person who could actually make him feel better, walked out on him when he needed you the most. He needs your love and support right now, not for you to be mad at him. What he did was stupid and he shouldn't have done it but he probably really did try for you. He loves you with all of his heart, of course you're worth it to him. Please go and see him."

Will was right. Will's always right.

Cole: "You're right... Thank you."

I pulled away from him and he smiled at me. I left the house and drove back to Dalton's.

*Dalton*

I was sitting at my window, just watching everything when Cole's car pulled up in front of the house. He got out of it and walked up to the front door. I heard the doorbell seconds later then his beautiful voice ran through the house. Footsteps sounded on the stairs then there was a knock on my door. I slowly walked over to it and opened it to see my gorgeous boyfriend. He pulled me into his arms and held me tight.

Cole: "I'm so sorry baby. I was just upset, I love you so much."

Dalton: "I should be sorry, not you. I promised I would stop and I broke that promise. You're so worth it and god I love you."

Cole: "I know you tried for me and that's all that matters."

He pulled away slightly, grabbed my cheeks in his hands and pressed his lips to mine. He moved us over to my bed and we fell down on it.

Cole and I cuddled up together under my covers, bare bodies pressed right against each other.

Dalton: "I love you so much and I will stop this time. For you."

Cole: "Thank you, I love you so much."

I kissed him quickly and then we fell asleep in each others arms.