Journey of Forbidden Emotion (UNEDITED)

Chapter 20! Finding our differences...

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'Baby... you shot your love through my defenses
And left me wide open
Feels like my feet can't touch the ground
That's what you've done to me'

Samantha Jade, What You've done to me.

Chapter 20:
Xavier-

I couldn't handle Roxy cried in my arms... It hurt me to see her cry. Which didn't help me keep my cool.

Notebook movie:                      [SPOILERS]

A girl trying to decide who she should spend the rest of her days with:
Rich dude who's popular, or a farm-boy with the white house,
At the end of the story Noah (the wood/farm-boy) and Ally find themselves in a Nursing home and die happily together in their arms one night.

That bit got me, I don't want to ever see Roxy die, nor do I want her to forget me; nor do I want to see her loving someone-else. Never do I ever want to see Roxy in someone else's arms.

"Are you all right?" Roxy pulls back mascara running down her eyes.

"I'm fine," There was a long pause as I stared into her crystal baby browns. "look at you, you're a panda." I chuckled wiping off the mascara under her eyes. She softly laughed and cupped my jawline.

"And you still look perfect." She replied, with that note I toppled on her kissing the daylights out of her, "says.you." I said in-between kisses.

We pulled away as she had a smirk on her mouth "I felt how you became 'tense' during the movie. At a certain place, of time." She giggled, my eyes wondered to another place, remembering when my body just 'noped' it.

"Well, you moved a lot..." I teased as her lips formed a 'O'
"Your eyes innocently watching them have sex." I continued making her shout back...
"I was not! Besides... it really made me think..."

Oh really?
"Oh really? What about?" I asked with a grin-eyebrow raised, my body sprawled out on the couch.

"Bout, you know... Like... Us? And what it's like... When, where, you know..." She stumbled on her words, I nodded in agreement, smirking the heck out of myself.

She blushes as she spoke."I don't know about you, but-I-don't-really-want-to-do-it-on-the-floor-of-a-haunted-house...just-saying." She replied very quickly, her cheeks heating up. Aww cute. 

"Ah-huh. What about a couch?" I ask huskily, my 'baby maker' so ready.
Her eyes-widen and her lips part, her eyebrow rose to make perfect arches.

"Xavier!" She hit my leg clearly grossed out... "Iwouldmuchratheronabed." She answered softly.
"Have- you- ever- like... you know?" She asks quiet and polite.

"No." I answered straightforwardly to her virginity question.

"Good. Come on let's do something!" she leaps up.

"That's what we're talking about babe, or should I say planning." I winked as she gave me a pointed look and rolled her eyes.

"Nooo. I meant, let's go play a game or something." She suggested acting younger than normal as she tugged on my arm.