Live for me. Live for us

Chapter 15: The end (Final)

I felt useless. Chained up in front on hundreds waiting. Waiting to die.

This was my punishment. Death. "This woman you see before you is the Death titan and the murderer of two fellow comrades" Erwin said to the audience. "YOU CANT DO THIS" levi screamed. He was held back by Jean. "PLEASE" Levi continued. "Make it quick" I said looking up at Erwin. He nodded and picked up the sword. I looked over at Levi. Tears streaming down his face. "Whenever you ready" I said looking back at the tear puddle below me.

"I-I cant" Erwin fell to his knees. I jolted up. "what do you mean" I said struggling to breathe. Jean let go of Levi who leaped on stage and hugged me. "You're ok" He weeped. "Let her go" Military police said as they unchained me. Levi pushed me down and hovered over me. His tears covered my face. "Levi please" I said as I pushed him off of me and ran towards my room.

I couldn't. I pushed my dresser in front of the door and waited to die. Again. I killed the only hope of survival. God knows where my real parents are. Marcus and Athena are long gone. Now Annie. I did it, I killed her. Why didnt Erwin kill me when he had the chance. It would save me the time to do the deed. I took out some paper and a pencil and wrote.

"Dearest Sasha,

I know you're reading this in tears. Yes I killed myself. But please don't put the blame on you. Or anyone other then me. I did this. I'll miss how you take my food and how you cheered me up when Petra died. Thank you truly for everything you've done for me.

Love and never forget Violet Nakama/Ebony Leonhart"

Next letter

"Dearest Erwin

Thanks for not killing me so I'd have to do this. You could of saved yourself all this grief. You didn't do this. You didn't make me do this. I did this for myself. Trust me in the long run its worth it.

Love and never forget Violet Nakama/Ebony Leonhart"

Another one

"Dearest Jean

Hey horseface. Last time ill ever say that. Sorry about the tears stains on the paper bud. You probably found me. Im so sorry. Its not you. I know 100% you'll put all the blame on you but please. If I see you put one little tiny bit of blame on you I will be very extremely angry with you. Oh yeah one more thing. Ill say hi to Marco for ya.

Love and never forget Violet Nakama/Ebony Leonhart"

One more

"To my love Levi

Darling. Know you're looking at me in complete shock. Im so so so sorry for what you have to see. You did not make me do this. No one other then my own idiot self did this. The reason I committed suicide is because I'm depressed. I killed Annie. My own fucking sister. Now you know. I never said this in person but Levi...

I love you.

I didn't know what love felt like until I met you.

Love is when you hold someone. And the world stops. And you know everything is going to be okay for just one moment.

Levi I wish you luck in your future. Please don't die because im gone.

Live for me. Live for us.

Love and never forget Violet Nakama/Ebony Leonhart"

That was all I needed to write. I opened my vanity and pulled out a gun.

The most painful goodbyes are the ones that are never said and never explained

Time stopped and if felt like an eternity as the bullet bursted through my head.

Slowly and gracefully I fell, limp, dead, meaningless.