Live for me. Live for us

Chapter 5: Jealous

Lately I've been avoiding the missions. Yet killing titans was my hobby. And I am the opposite of humanity. I just feel like I lost my click. I liked to sit around and look at myself in my vanity. I decided to measure how tall I was. I came out to about 190 cm. I heard the tallest cadet was 192. Bertolt Hoover is his name. I've always been a tall person. Which is surprising because my mom was 150 cm and my dad was 155 cm. theres really no reason that I'm tall.

Everyone has been gone for a while. I decided to ask around. I put on my uniform and went out to ask some cadets who stayed back. I saw an older looking cadet and her much younger looking friend sitting at a table. They had very concerned looks on their faces. "Excuse me ladys but would any of you know why they mission is taking so long" I interrupted their conversation. "The titans have gotten into trost" the older one sobbed.

No. I hope everyone is ok. "Do you mind me asking what's wrong" I sat down with them and rubbed the crying woman's back. "Her husband and parents live is trost" the young girl sighed. "Oh my. I am very sorry. I hope they are fine" I swallowed. "You don't understand" she looked up at me. "I do. When my kingdom got taken by the titans I witnessed my parents get eaten" I started to tear up. I quickly wiped my eyes.

We talked for a bit but we all heard the clicking of hooves. I quickly ran out to see so many missing cadets. Also too many inquired. "Erwin the plan was to keep them al-" I started to scold the commander when he threw Eren in my arms. "This ones not one of us" He stood with his horse. Still. No movement. "What do you mean" I raised an eyebrow. "Well he's a titan" Levi said walking up to us.

"I didn't ask you" I glared at Levi. "Whatever" he rolled his eyes at me then walked away. "I have no idea what happened so he's not my business" I said handing him the limp, cold Eren. He walked away with him then a felt a tap on my back. I saw the girl with the red scarf. "Yes?" I aksed. "Will he be ok" she asked. "Me and Erwin will take care of him. I just need you to do me a favour" I crossed my arms. She nodded. "Stay out of the way of us" I left her and walked inside.

I was slowly drifting off to sleep when a heard a slow creak of a door opening. Next I heard whispers. I didn't want to catch these people so I pretended to sleep. "See I told you fast asleep she wont even know we're here" I heard a male voice right in front of me. What was going on. "She could be pretending" a female voice spoke. "We can just get it and leave" the boy said. Ok this was enough. I threw my body up as fast as I could and looked over at these people.

Two black figures stood still right at the side of my bed. One holding a box and the other holding a key looking object. "Please sit" I gestured them to sit on my bed. I lit a candle to see an embarrassed Sasha and Connie. I sighed and looked at their red faces. "Are you mad" Connie said looking at his feet. "Of course I'm not mad. I'm disappointed" I said putting my hand on his head. I held out my hand and Connie gave me the box and key.

"Whats even in there" Sasha looked over at Connie. "Sweet food" He looked over at her. "Ooo. Can we try some" Her eyes glimmered in the candles dull light. "Sadly no. This was the last gift my mother gave me". We all talked for a while then they went to their rooms to sleep.

When I got up I went down to the dining hall. I didn't go there too much. I saw Jean sitting alone. "Hey horse face. Wheres Marco don't you two like always sit with each other?" I ask him and sat next to him. "Marcos..." He started to tear up. "What" I put my hand on his shoulder. "He's..." He sobbed. "Jean please tell me" I put my hand on his cheek. "MARCOS DEAD" He yelled, stood and slammed his hands in the table. Each attracting more attention. I sat there still. Marco.

I was watching the cadets in the dining hall with Jean. It was a few day after our little mess about Marco. At least he forgave me for making him emotional. "Hey Horse who's that" I said elbowing his arm and pointing to a blonde girl with a bigger nose. Soon I realized who she was. "Oh thats Annie, beanstalk" He said. We had funny nicknames for each other. Also we started to joke around about other cadets and survey crop members. We called Erwin eyebrows. It was hard not to call him that in meetings.

I really caved in on this guy. I guess the only reason I avoided him was because when we first met he was hitting on me. He put his head on my shoulder. He was the perfect height to do that. I smiled and blew raspberries in his face. He yelped and wiped his face with his shirt. Exposing his abs. I blushed and hid my face. I caught a quick glance of Levi from across the room. He looked different. The look on his face.

He was....

Jealous?