Love Buzz - Kurt Cobain Fanfic

Chapter Forty

The day of the VMAs had finally arrived and I was filled with anxiousness. So much, that I was beginning to feel nauseous. "You okay, babe?" Kurt asked as he put his clothes on. "Yeah, i'm just a little nervous about this." I replied as I grabbed the dress I planned on wearing out of the closet. "Don't be. If anyone fucks with you or Frances, I will personally shove their head up their ass." He smiled and kissed my face. The dress I picked out was black, long sleeved, form fitting and reached just above the knees. I wore some ripped tights with it and slipped on my Docs. My hair was messy and wavy and i applied a smokey eye and some dark red lipstick. "You look so fucking beautiful Jade." Kurt smiled and blushed a little when he saw me. "You're too damn cute." I grinned and gave him a peck on the cheek. Kurt didn't bother to dress up and I loved him for it. He had on a striped, long sleeved shirt and a pair of ripped, patched up jeans. I decided to put a cute little yellow dress on Frances and I must say, we looked like a really cute family. "We gotta go get Krist and Dave in 20 minutes, so I guess you ready to go? The limo that I don't wanna ride in is waiting outside." Kurt said. I chucked and nudged him in the arm. "Oh, don't you want all the luxaries of fame?" I said, winking at him. He rolled his eyes and smiled as we grabbed Frances and headed out the door. "You fuckers ready to take over tonight?" Krist exclaimed as he climbed into the limo. "Frances is gonna crash the whole show, she told me she's on a secret mission." Dave said as Frances jabbered words at him. We all laughed. "Frances, that's not nice!" I laughed, kissing her forehead. "Phants!" She exclaimed. "Shit, she's crashing the show with elephants?!" Dave said. "Ever since she saw them at the zoo, she's been obsessed." I laughed as she reached for Kurt. "Dada phant!" She said, grabbing his nose. "Daddy's an elephant? Gee, thanks Frances." Kurt smiled and she clapped her hands. I was glad Frances was being entertaining, because my nerves were starting to take over. We pulled up to the red carpet and I grabbed Kurt's hand and gave him a nervous look. "You're fine, Jade. Just breathe. We're all together in this. And you look beautiful, nothing to worry about. I swear." He said in his perfect voice before kissing me. I took a deep breath and told myself that he was right. When we stepped outside the limo, we were bombarded with cameras, lights, microphones and yelling interviewers. I squeezed Kurt's hand and he looked at me assuringly with his blue eyes. "Kurt, how's fatherhood?!" An interviewer yelled. "Vodka? Yes, I love vodka!" He replied as we continued walking. I couldn't help but let out a giggle. I loved the way he gave no fucks. It made me relax a little. We all posed for some pictures and suddenly a microphone was shoved in my face. "Jade, how did you handle the overdose scare? Are there plans for rehab for him? He must not care too much about your little girl, huh?" The rude interviewer said. "Um.." I squeezed Kurt's hand but nothing was there. I looked around, paniced. He had somehow got lost in the crowd but saw me behind him and came back for me. "I really don't think you have the right to ask me that shit. And he loves our daughter more than life itself so maybe you need to go interview someone who has time for your bullshit." I spat out and walked away, back to Kurt who was holding Frances. At this point, I wanted to throw up. We finally got past all the interviews and pictures and made it to our seats. About 45 minutes into the show, nausea was setting in very heavily. "Fuck, i think i'm gonna throw up." I whispered to Kurt. "Babe, relax. The hard part is over. " He replied. "No, Kurt. I feel really sick." I said, covering my mouth. "I'll go with her, Kurt." Shelli whispered as we got up and made our way to the bathroom. I threw up into a trashcan and she held my hair back for me. "Thanks, Shell. I don't know what's wrong with me. I think I'm getting sick or something. " I said, fixing myself in the mirror. "You know i'm always here. Lets get back before we miss them." She replied and i agreed. We hurried back to our seats and as soon as we arrived I heard "And the winner is..Nirvana with In Bloom!" I smiled and hugged Kurt before he climbed on Krist's back and they all three made their way to the stage. I was so happy for them. They accepted the award and made their way back to me, Shelli and Frances. The awards were over not long after that and we climbed back into the limo. "Lets go out and celebrate!" Shelli exclaimed as she kissed Krist on the cheek. "Can we pick another night, Shell? Im not feeling so great." I replied as I buried my face into Kurt's chest. He rubbed my back gently. "Oh god. Hand me the trashcan." I told Shelli as sweat beaded up on my forehead. She quickly got it to me and I emptied my stomach yet again. "Mama phant!" Frances exclaimed. "Yes Frances, mommy sounds like an elephant when she pukes, huh?" I slightly smiled and layed my head on Kurt's shoulder. "I'm really sorry, Jade. I hope you feel better." Shelli said, hugging me bye. "Yeah, thanks. I think it was just something I ate." I replied before getting out of the limo. We walked into the house and Kurt put Frances in her crib and got her to sleep while I rested on the couch. He sat down next to me with a worried look on his face. "Jade.." He said, his voice trailing off. "Yeah, babe?" I asked, curious. "You aren't pregnant are you?" He asked, grabbing my hand. My heart dropped into my stomach.