Niecey. . .
Last night very crucial. I'm just not ready for everything to go forward. I know that he would never hurt me. I trust and love him with every fiber of my being but I just couldn't let him in. Last night as much as I wanted to let him into my heart, I just couldn't. Not yet at least. I knew it was safe and he wouldn't hurt me but all I could think about was Derrick. Then thoughts of Tyler flooded my head. I saw him with Brittney at the mall one day and it crushed me. All the promises he'd made me. All of it was a lie. He always forced himself on me even after being told no and honestly he made me weak. I need to go home for a little while. See my mother and then maybe I can come back and talk to him about all of this. I was awake when he came into the room. I felt him at the door but I was scared to open my eyes. What if he was mad at me? I heard him leave the apartment then the car driving away. I jumped up and ran to go get in the shower . After that I packed all of my things and put them in my car. Why was I leaving the only person who has been there for me through all of this? It was too late now. I left.
"Mommy!" I walked into the house and started to yell for my mother.
"I'm in here Baby."I ran to her room and jumped on the bed next to her."Girl I missed you!" She kept planting kisses all over my face. It made my heart smile being around my mother.
"I missed you too." Just as I put my head on her lap Derrick walked into the room.
"Hey Baby Girl. Where you been? We missed you." He came over to the bed and kissed my forehead. I cringed.
"Hi Derrick." I stated dryly. He kissed my mother on her mouth then walked out.
"Why do you call him Derrick? That's your father as much as I'm your mother, Baby."
"He left you all alone for two years with me. He cheated on you Mommy. Why'd you take him back anyways?"
"You wouldn't understand. I love that man more than I've ever loved another." She must have saw the doubt in my eyes. "But, you are my life. When I saw you at that hospital I knew you had to be my daughter. You have my heart forever. " My mother rubbed my hair until I fell asleep.
"Deniece Janell. Get up girl. Shawny and Frankie are here to see you." I opened my eyes to see my 2 bestfriends. I met these girls in the first grade and they never left my side. I can't believe I hadn't seen them in a month. Once we were in my room with the door closed Shawny started the conversation. "What's been going on with you. We haven't seen you in a month. "
"I'm sorry. I've been staying with Hakeem." I just knew they about to let me have it but something wasn't right. Frankie had a look in her eyes of pain. "Frankie, why are you so quiet? You ain't never quiet."
"I'm pregnant Niecey," tears wet her cheeks. "Two months." I didn't have to ask because I already knew that it was CJ's baby.
"Oh Francisca." I held my arms out for her to walk into. We sat on the bed and she cried on my shoulder. "I'm sorry I haven't been around. What did CJ say?"
"He says it isn't his. That I been creepin' and it's gone finally catch up to me. Niecey, I swear I only been with him for the last year." She cried even harder.
"We gone have a sleepover tonight. Shawny, go call your Mom and ask her can you stay here with me for the weekend. Then go tell my Mommy yall staying." Shawny left out of the room trembling and crying.
