Phan || Put On Mute {BoyxBoy}

Chapter 5 || I..

You make my heart shake bend and break

But I can't turn away

And it's driving me wild - Wild by Troye Sivan

Dan took a deep breath before poking Phil's side. The two boys had fallen asleep in Dan's bed. Phil's head was rested on Dan's chest. A small wet spot from Phil was crying, had still been visible. Phil was crying so hard last night. Dan tried to kiss him again, which didn't work. Dan decided that the only thing he could do was rub his back and whisper small things in his ear. Phil had fallen asleep at around 5am, Dan soon following after that.

Dan rubbed his eyes, freeing them from the crust. Dan felt it was the best feeling when he first awoke. Dan looked down at the boy, sleeping soundly on his chest. Small, quiet whimpers emitting from his mouth. Dan smiled sadly at the boy.

Something clicked in his mind, Why was Phil even here? The question floated in Dan's, until Phil's small broken voice said, "D-Dan?" Phil's small head looking up at Dan, tears still visible in his eyes. Dan nodded to show that he was awake.

Phil sighed before talking again, "S--Sorry a-about your shirt." A small tear leaking from his eye.

Dan shook his head, to which Phil took it that it was okay. Phil let out a small sob laying his head back on Dan's chest Dan slowly grabbed his notebook writing down 'What happened last night Phil?' showing it to the boy on his chest, Phil looked at it before crying louder.

Dan tried to comfort the boy but Phil just pushed him away, Dan began to think that he wasn't good enough to make Phil happy a small tear leaking from his eye threatening to fall into the younger boys hair. Dan grabbed his notebook writing down 'Am I'm not good enough for you?' Dan gave the younger boy his notepad and the response he got was what made him go over the edge Phil had said "N-No."

He got up from his position Dan's chest, putting on his shoes still crying and walking out the door. Dan sobbed before getting standing up and walking into the bedroom.

Phil took out his phone, texting Jess.

To ; Jessariono

Hey..

From ; Jessarino

Hi

To ; Jessarino

Can I come over?

From ; Jessarino

Sure but Sylvie is over

To ; Jessarino

I'll be over in a few :)

-

Was the last text he sent before placing his phone in his pocket and walking towards the familiar black house, Phil wiped his eye and knocked on the door a few seconds later the door opened and he saw Jess her hair messy and her jumpers was on backwards. Phil giggled, stuttering, "H-Hey." His eyes were still glossy and there was still tears on his cheek.

"Hi..?" Jess said studying the boy in front of her, confused about a lot of things.

Phil walked inside seeing a smallish hickey on Jess neck but he ignored it, Phil sat down on the couch another smallish sob escaping his lips, Jess sighed walking back upstairs leaving the boy alone so that he could calm down.

Phil calmed down a few moments later, his breathing slowing down and his crying stopping, he stood up walking upstairs and into Jess's bedroom. The two girls were sat on the bed, Phil cleared his throat gaining the two girls on the bed attention.

"S-Sorry about that." Phil smiled sadly at them.

"What happened?" Sylvie asked Phil looking worriedly at him, petting the spot next to her and Jess with an inviting smile.

"I-I had a small fight... with Dan..." Phil muttered, leaning against the doorway another small tear falling down his face. The memory from this morning returned.

Phil sucked it up, putting on a fake smile, but it didn't fool Jess. "Why?" Jess looked at Phil a small hint of anger in her eyes, Phil closed his eyes trying to remember what made him say 'no' then it clicked in his head he said it because his mind was blurry.

Phil answered, "Because all could think about was him and how he isn't good enough but that he is all I need."

Phil smiled but it faltered as Sylvie's voice echoed through Phil's ears. "He... is so unstable... He might... Shit."

-

Dan was on his 125 cut. He was starting to lose count, all he could think about was that he wasn't good enough for Phil...

-

"Shoot," Phil muttered, running downstairs putting on his shoes, screaming, "Bye, and thanks you guys." He sprinted outside, running towards Dan's house.

Phil was out of breath as he knocked on Dan's door. No one answered the door. "Shit," Phil muttered.

Phil ran toward the backyard. He saw an open window. It was the only chance. Phil had to climb a tree, trying to get closer to the opening. Phil sighed and began to climb the tree, beginning to climb the tree, it was a very small tree, but it would do the job.

Phil was close when he started to hear water running, Phil reached for the window just reaching it. Phil grabbed on bringing himself towards the window and then he jumped but Phil didn't have a high enough jump. He needed to pull himself the last bit.

Once Phil was inside he started run towards Dan's room. Only to see a piece of paper lying on his bed. Phil picked it up seeing his name on the front of the paper Phil took a deep breath and opened it.

'Dear Phil.. I'm sorry that I'm not good enough. I tried to make someone happy but I just fuck it up, I tried to make people see that I'm not an idiot but they just giggle and walk away, I'm a mute freak that nobody seems to know that I exist or that I have feelings. I'm a dark shell of depression and sadness.

So I'm going to of myself you won't miss me mom or dad won't miss me and I'm sure as hell Sara wouldn't care. Goodbye Phil stay safe and please don't cry over me.

- Dan'

Phil felt tears fall down his cheeks, he ran towards the bathroom kicking it down to try to save his friend, he ran inside seeing Dan sitting up a blade in his hand swaying slightly Phil snatched the blade of him.

Snapping it in half, he picked up the half conscious Dan. Tears rolled down his face, some falling onto Dan's face. Phil placed Dan on his bed, taking off his hoodie wrapping it around Dan's arm, Dan's face showing a small bit of pain showing Phil that he is still with him.

Phil slowly let Dan's head fall onto the bed as he walked into the bathroom again grabbing some gauze wraps and walking back into Dan's room making small slow steps towards Dan trying not to alert him, He grabbed Dan's other arm carefully wrapping the gauze around it. Dan let out a small whimper of pain.

Phil sighed finishing up. Dan had fallen asleep his head was rested on Phil's shoulder and tears were drying up against his cheeks. Phil sighed he had just gotten their in time--

A/N

Sorry?

Anyway I have decided on a name for you guys drumroll please *its quiet* Oh yeah I'm writing this under my blanket anyway you guys are going to be called ; GEEKS!

I think it's a good name what do you people think..?

The question of teh day is Do Dan and Phil make up?

JESS SAYS HI

Stay geeky Stay sweet and Byee .-.