My messed up girl!

Panic attack

Eva's POV

I couldn't stay at the apartment after that.

I had no idea what happened last night,nothing! Its like I my memory wiped out!

I checked my body ,looking for some kind of bruise to make sure I did nothing sexual with anyone!

Phew! I was relived when there was nothing but still I wanted to get out.

I didn't feel like going on a job hunt today,my savings was enough for me to keep going about a month or two.

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I was listening to ' I know you ' by Skylar grey while reading 'ugly love' .

I was too engrossed in it when someone tapped onto my shoulder.

It was mike from last week.

" hi" he greeted with a sweet smile.

" hi mike" I greeted back with a small smile.

" can I sit with you? Or are you waiting for someone?"  He asked looking around.

" no no .I am alone." I said ,motioning him to sit down.

I couldn't just shoo...him away and what harm will it do ,by just talking with him...? Right?

I guess it is until he takes this in all wrong direction.

Stevie's POV

" book two tickets to greece" i told Jessica.

I decided to take Eva with me to Greece. my cousin Lucy was getting married.

I grabbed some Chinese take outs while driving home.

convincing her to go with me ,would be difficult but I have to.I can't leave her alone here ,every time I do ,something bad happens.

I opened the door to my condo and to my disapointment I couldn't find eva as usaul on the couch ,reading.

" eva?!" I called out for ,waiting for some yelling back but it never came.

I started to have a bad feeling about this.

I went to check her room but she was not there.

Suddenly I heard heavy breathing noises coming from her bathroom.

I slowly opened the door ,blocking my thoughts which were about to go crazy.

But those breathing weren't moans...they were...

My eyes landed on eva ,who was scout up in the corner of the bathroom which was a mess. I hurriedly knelt down beside her

She was breathing hard with tears in her eyes.she looked at me and jump to hug me.

Her vice was tight .I wrapped mynarms around her ,tight and patted.

"Shhh....you are going to be fine!" I tried to calm her down.

But I wasn't working.

I released trying to figure out what I should do! I don't have any experience with panic attacks.

" what's ....gonn-n-a ha-ppp-en to me!" She said freaking out and looking away.

" I a-mm of noooo u-ssse!" She said between breaths.

" you are going to be fine eva! Look at me! I am here!" I cupped her face tight ,forcing her to look at me.

I need to calm her down.

And then I did the most unexpected  and stupidist thing I could think of .
I kissed her.

I slammed my lips on her trying to make her forget .at first she stood like a statue while I was kissing her with her eyes open wide. But it seems to work ,she calmed down ,she wasn't fidgeting like she was earlier.

I couldn't stop myself from sucking those lips.those were the softest pair I ever kissed.

I released her with disappointment. after a few second when she was okay.

" are you okay now?" I tried to act normal to which ,she nodded .

"Why did you do that?" She asked looking at me with confusion.

I myself didn't know why I did it.its not like I hate it ,its just to scary for me to kiss her .she might get pissed but the opposite happened.

" I don't know...I just had to make you forget " I said rubbing the back of my head nervously.

" thanks...",she said and hugged me.

She thanked me?

I blinked a few times in amazement.

The girl ,who always argued with me, never said a single nice word escaped her mouth,was here, thanking me.

She kept looking down ,trying to avoid my gaze.

" welcome. Come on now,Let's get you something to eat...." She was a mess .her hair were although tied in a bun but still few strands were out ,she was just in a long sweater without anything else.

She stood up my help.

Her legs looked weak and she was wobbling .

I wrapped my arm around her knees and lifted her in my threshold.

" hey..!!" She said in a surprise.

" relax...you can barely stand on your own" I told her.

I was glad she didn't argue maybe she knew it herself ,that she can't stand.

I laid her down on couch and pulled the blanket over her feet which she half folded.