I'm Done

I Just Can't Anymore

After that night I was devastated but I was still determined to talk to him/her. I knew that I could not let him/her drag me into his/her world but I thought that it would never happen.

She/he was dark inside. And I realized that. But he/she was so fun to talk to. Jared was a sweet, considerate, funny guy. He admitted that he was a player but that he could never cheat on me.

But Megan is a depressed, suicidal, pot smoker who nobody could change. Deep down inside I knew that they were the same person but I didn't want to believe it.

I did treat them like they were different people. I don't quite know why but I just went with it. To me, it was completely normal. It was completely normal to treat a girl named Megan, like she was a guy named Jared. That I liked Jared - as more than a friend.

In a way, it was normal. It was normal for us. If anyone knew about the way we talked to each other they would think we're complete weirdos. And I knew that. But I also knew that I couldn't talk to him/her anymore.

And I did. One day after another one of the dances, I just stopped texting her. I did get angry at her at the dance so a week later I got a text asking if I was mad at him/her. I just deleted it.

He/she changed me. And even if I want to believe it or not, he/she will always be a part of me. He/she's the one who made me depressed. He/she's the one who got me into the so called "scary emo" music. He/she's the one who made me want to dye my hair. He/she's the one who changed my life.

I don't know where I would be without him/her. Actually I do. I would still be a little naive girl who had no culture whatsoever. But he/she introduced me to new things that I wouldn't have even known existed if it weren't for him/her.

So even though I refuse to talk to him/her, deep down inside I wanted to. I didn't want to stop. But I had to. So I picked up my phone and searched for his/her name. I found it and started to type a message.

-I'm done

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THE END

Sooo ya. There's the book. I know it's not the longest book ever and the chapters are kinda short but there will be a sequel. If you liked it, it was a real life true story. Keep your eyes out for the second book "Or Am I?". Stay alive ;)