I'm fine

Hospital

Amanda's POV:

I woke up the next day, I saw that nicks arms were around my fragile body, I liked laying here with him, but I was afraid to go home tonight and find Nate there.

I got up and did my normal routine getting in the shower, doing my hair and makeup and then getting coffee. But I think it takes Nick longer to get ready.

"How long does it take for you to get ready?" I laughed

"I don't know 30 minutes"

"You take longer then me"

"Hey it takes a long time to get this hair right" he laughed

We drove to the precinct being greeted by everyone at work, I felt better not going to work in a lot of pain, I was still in some pain but not as much.

I sat down at my desk and started to get to work "AMANDA!" A voice screamed

I stood up, I knew that voice from anywhere, I gulped and saw Nate run in with a black eye "hey, hey you can't be here" Nick growled

"It's ok Nick, come on Nate lets go talk" I said worried

He followed me into the bunks and he
Slammed the door "where the hell where you last night?" He said

"We were working late and I had to sleep in the bunks" I lied

He slapped my across the face "you do not miss coming home to me" I held my cheek tears coming down my face

He locked the door and pulled down his pants and mine and shoved himself in and out of me, why was he doing this in front of my squad.

"Please stop" I cried

He punched my stomach, and whipped me with his belt. He pulled up his pants, and I quickly pulled mine up, he pulled my hair down and threw my against the wall.

"This is what happens when you tell someone what happened"

Nick told him, he promised me and he broke it. He started beating me over and over, he banged my head against the wall, the room started to spin "Nate stop please" he took a knife out and
Stabbed me over, and over, I cried the room kept spinning until the room got completely dark.

Nicks POV;

Why is she going alone with him, he's going to hurt her, but I had to trust her. I stared at the hall where the bunks where hoping she would come out unharmed.

But those seconds turned to minutes and she still wasn't out, 2 minutes, 5 minutes, 10, 20, 30 she wasn't coming out, I started to panic.

I got up from my seat and rushed to the bunks, I opened the door and saw Amanda around a pool of blood "AMANDA SOMEONE CALL A BUS NOW" I screamed running over to her

She was unconscious, she lost a lot of blood, I put pressure on her head, and some of her stab wounds. "Nick what happened?" Liv asked running in

"It's a long story, I'll tell you at the hospital"

My hands and shirt were covered in her blood, I rode in the ambulance with her holding her hand, her machine beeping like crazy, they pushed me out of the way a few times to get her back.

when they got there they rushed her into emergency surgery, I waited for everyone else to come. "Nick what the hell happened?" Liv asked again

I sighed "it was Nate"

"What did he do?" Cragen asked

"He beat and raped her for the past 3 months, she opened up and told me yesterday before you guys came in, she stayed at my apartment last night and I guess Nate wasn't to happy about that and came in this morning"

"Why didn't you tell anyone?" Fin asked

"I promised her I wouldn't, I had to beg her to tell me what happened, she's probably already mad that I told Nate to stay away from her"

"When did you tell him that?" Munch asked

"Yesterday, I payed him a visit and told him to leave her alone, I shouldn't have went I should have known this would have happened." I said burring my hands in my face

"Nick it's ok, you just were protecting her" cargen said

We waited for seemed like hours, and hours, it was 3 hours later when they finally came out "for Amanda Rollins"

Everyone stood up "she's in ICU right now, she's still sleeping you guys can visit her but you gotta be quiet" the doctor said

We followed the doctor into her room, she was hooked up to a bunch of machines, I saw the scars all over her body, on her arms, legs, neck, face, I couldn't believe what he did to her

"Did you do a rape kit?" I asked

"No not yet we have to wait until she wakes up" the doctor answered

I nodded, and sat down in one of the chairs, I stared at her, thinking if there was anything I could have done to prevent this.

Amanda could have told me sooner, but she isn't the type of person to talk about her emotions, she doesn't think Anyone will listen, she's had it rough with her sister so she thinks no one will help her.

Everyone else left and I sat there waiting for her to wake up, I wonder if she will, she is in ICU under careful care due to all her injuries.

I looked at my watch and saw it was 10pm, I sighed and grabbed her hand "I love you" I said it was something I have always wanted to tell her, wether she could hear me or not.