Twin Flame... What?

the first change.

the timelines merging.

the scholar the headmaster of the magic school.

first they learn something new about mermaids. or primal gooselings. they can lay purls with the eggs. you message the stomach up wards to get the purls to be layer. i wonder what magical properties these have.

then they went to learn what the other shadow milk cookies had been doing.

they found one being protective of mother. living with her even when she changes into a man. 

another living with a man that is working on mastering the martial arts of the anything goes school of martial arts.

the quote from the Greeks all is fair in love and war,

is how they frame their martial arts. with real disciplines. mixing them together until it become something of it own practice. 

one of the family members laid an egg and had laid purls not sure if the whole new goose testing out thing is really what is happening or if the are a merfolk. might need to learn more about that. but for now i am looking for that fractured self the many dead mes and many dead mothers in its bones. gathering each timeline where i had died. but  had done everything i could to not died which means this is not through out all time. but her dieing on purpose. at the points in time where mother died. but why?

we tried to save mom once and waited by her side until she woke up revved through her own power. so why? unless.

mom always said she could train ancient techniques and skills from those of the past when she could talk to the past.

i might have chosen to train with father death. while may trained to become a healer that could resurrect us anytime we needed it. normally when dad got extra possessive. always bringing up those deals that sibling of mine.

i remember this.......... i was hoping to use this to learn what the other me was after. but i remember this.

spirit threads. wrapping through my mind. in-between neurons 

the next story. once you have found me eternal sugar. and my headmaster the teacher that talks too much. you won't find help this far in.

lets heal those pinched nerves shale we. feels better right.

eternal sugar finds the tree of the netherworld of truth. one planted to learn everything about what amber adala leatham was as a species. this was before she learned through taking on her true form. and seeing herself from Raphael's seraphim's sight and many eyes.

she realized that she was a seraphim and that it was only her sorrow true form. darkness. she wondered if the garudo would become a cherub evolving the lion into a human if it was an angel. then did she have the biology of 11 angels or 10 angels and something else. then does the eagle and the owl evolve into humans and angels. and do they all do that because they were always child angels.

who are they? what is the angel i am? if this is just one form. only one form of my mother.

what is my mother? was amber danae leatham truly human? i need to learn who my mother truly is.

i will listen to her ptsd as we travel the world as i go on a pilgrimage. 

to learn the truth and to find out what she had been doing around the world when they had not been living together.

and she learned so many ancient abilities techniques. 

how much was mom protecting me?

every day it seems. may had been helping her. all the pain i went through looked shallow.

mom turned her pain into something that saved lives and created entire systems that help save peoples lives. 

but mine. it was empty. isolated. and never helped anyone.

when mom got hurt she changed the world through hard work to save others from experiencing the same pain. and had tales of her works. even if they were under different names. that were not her own. over working herself sometimes. its nice when she rests. she does the work of ten men in every place we travel to. on herself and for the world. how can she do that much?

how do i learn how to do that? how do i get her to rest and do the work of one man instead of ten? i need to do healing work for mom and do my own thing and help may not feel overwhelmed. 

how do i help others? how do i help others even when i am in pain or wanting to bring any kind of conflict? how do i do those things mother?

when i learned it all i learned the truth of what they had been and how things worked. i saw behind the curtain.

the change.

you will become me one day.

never.

broken that accepted the revenge and pain.

so i just need to train to change my revenge and pain into something else then. 

i need to train and evolve my moves.

telekinesis evolved into psychokinesis last week it evolved into divakochokinesis 

not sure what that means though. i think it was divine psychokinesis. divine move. divine psychic move.

calm mind evolved into meditation 

meditation sharply boost special attack, special defense, speed, defense, and heals hp the way the move rest does but you stay awake. 

evolve into white whole. energy giver.

white stone from celestial realm.

heal pulse i need to train that one next then train my minds abilities. in more then my monster forms.

i have that working for my titan form right now.  just put a tree with the things i wanted to train and made a training hall for each one. using what ever choirs or actions i felt the safest doing in side of them hiding them in trees. 

i love trees. my cat has water and healed so now they give me rain water so i don't need to water it as often. down too once a month or less. it still gets water though.

i have too many spirit around me for you to channel me it seems.

one channeling for you about adala.

she is the one hiding

and is a Pokémon like florgus. its a form she made for herself in are and then the pokemon world wanted her.

dryad mixed with phooka and cleric. not an eant from dsgaea, but the dryad from disgaea 2 dark hero days.  

i like making new things. i like fighting those who refuse to make the creations i want to make so i make them first to see what happens. 

grassy terrain. healing 8 hp to 15 hp grows with level i think or its a ratio.

i like making things..... not for this story. all of it is the same story.