The Wish [Harry Styles]

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A/N: Sorry it's unedited, and sorry for any mistakes I'll fix later! Just enjoy and don't forget to vote and comment. Also, what do you think will happen next?  

"Mandy, open up, please!" I knocked softly on her door and I raised my voice for her to hear. "I will embarrass you on your street," I warned and I heard a chuckle.

"You will only embarrass yourself, Styles."

"Please, just open and let me explain." I kept begging for what seemed like ten minutes. After she stormed out of my room last night, I tried calling her and texting her. I got no reply, I knew she was mad and she wasn't going to understand, but she also needed to let me explain everything with more details.

I didn't want to lose her again.

"Just op-" I got cut off by her opening the door. She had slightly red eyes and cheeks, I felt so guilty for knowing I was the reason.

"I know you may think I'm overreacting," She stepped outside and sat on the porch stairs. I followed her and sighed as I sat down next to her. "But I'm hurt."

"I know, I'm sorry."

"No, you're not. If you really cared, you wouldn't do that."

"You need to understand that you mean so much to me."

"No, I meant so much in the past. Well, your past at least." She leaned her head on her hand and she wasn't looking at me, she was staring at the street. "I helped you to get into x-factor again, which meant back to the point where you were."

"True."

"So, that also meant you were going to leave me again, right?" My eyes got wide.

"What? No!"

"Yes, think about it."

"No, really. I was going to explain everything by then and let you choose." She sarcastically chuckled and looked at me. 

"I know when you're lying, Harry." I sighed.

"Okay, the truth is I didn't know what to do, but I wasn't going to do that same mistake again, I swear!" She shook her head and stood up.

"Mo-"

"What hurts the most that I... I love you and I thought I knew you all this freaking time, but you didn't care. I know I may seem to overreact, but you mean so much to me. I thought I meant something to you, but clearly I don't."

Before I could even say anything, she ran and entered her house in tears. Fuck, I missed up big time and there was no way back. 

"I love you, Mandy." I did love her, she was my world. I didn't care if it I discovered it late or not, but I definitely knew it was too late for her to hear it.

I ran my fingers through my hair and I felt like crying. I didn't like whatever I was in right now. If it was a dream, I wanted it to end. It was a wish, then I can I wish to get back to the old life.

I walked home in deep thinking that I almost got hit, I wasn't watching where I was going. My mind was occupied by her and the boys.

It was a hard decision if I had to choose the boys or Mandy. I loved Mandy so much and I would do anything for her, I just had to protect her and I didn't deserve her. I broke her heart, like the idiots she used to date or go out with. But I'm selfish, I wanted her to be mine and I got that. 

At the same time, I loved the boys and the fans. They helped me and supported me, I was living the dream. My dream that I worked hard for since I was a kid. I knew them for five years, but it felt like forever. They changed me and my life and I wouldn't trade that.

But I couldn't have both worlds, I needed to choose.

I opened the door to find my mum sitting on the couch watching TV. She turned her head to look at me as I entered the living room, I sat next to her. She noticed how quiet and sad I was, She hugged me tight.

I was surprised but felt comfortable, of course. "Are you okay, darling?"

I sighed and didn't answer, but I needed her advice.

"Mom?" She hummed to show me that she was listening. "How can I choose between two important things that I can't live without?"

I pulled away to look at her, she was a bit taken back and she raised her eyebrows. "What kind of things?" Of course, I couldn't explain but I needed her.

"Important stuff, and not like a phone or anything."

"Let me guess... People?" She smiled. 

"Mom, I'm not a player or in a relationship with two girls." She laughed.

"I know, love. You are a caring gentleman." I smiled. "Anyways, You don't choose." I sat in silence waiting for her to continue, and she didn't and sat quietly. I raised my eyebrows in confusion.

"That's it?"

"You let your heart choose."

'What if my heart chose both?"

"Then let your mind giving your heart a help?"

"Mum, I'm not kidding."

"Neither I am. Darling, you can choose and think wisely, god gave us a heart and a mind for a reason."

The moment she said that I knew what I wanted and I thought wisely...

I wish I could get back to my old life.

A/N: What do you think will happen next?