Valkyrie - The Vampire Princess

Chapter 35

Chapter 35

I spent my last few hours of rest in despair. My doubts and concerns chased away my sleep.

I was lying on my back, watching the ceiling of my bedroom with precision, where I deposited several images of Eros, several scenes imagined by me.

In my imagination Eros corresponded all I felt for him. How easy it was to love that way.

I got up the next morning. My window curtains were open. I changed my clothes and I was in my long, wine -colored dress.

I walked through the castle. Everyone was sleeping.

I decided to take a ride in the vicinity of my father's dwelling. The overcast sky punished my vision. I walked to the edge of the lake. It was one of my favorite places, since everything there was so adventitious. I looked at the lake's water. I could no more see my reflection on it and at that moment I realized I was no longer human.

I was condemned for all eternity to never again be able to see my own image. I did not exist any longer...

I moved away from the lake as I was anxious and then I walked toward the forest of dry trees. They were burned by the snow. The landscape consisted of dark colors. I was standing on a rock and I looked up at the immense sky.

Seconds later, my vision had detected a black figure coming down from the heights. It was so fast I had no time to follow its movements ... This same thing was already at my side. It fell on its feet upon the rock. Our eyes met and there was a silence.

"You're awake so early!" A male voice said, breaking the silence between us.

"I could not sleep last night," I said retracted as if he could know the reason I could not close my eyes last night.

"What disturbed your sleep?" he asked looking at the lifeless trees.

His question sounded unimportant to him. It was a way to continue our conversation.

"Oh...I...in fact ... I went to bed thinking about how ..."

Soon I looked at his face and he stared at me waiting for me to finish my sentence.

Our gaze met. I became dumb. The courage fled from my heart. Confused, I shook my head.

"I would talk to ... you."

Even so I kept my head down as it was difficult trying to declare my love for him. Eros remained peaceful, gazing toward me.

"What's so important that you have talk to me about? To the point it has made you restless."

He proved to be compassionate.

"The love I feel ...for you ..."

My stare met his during my words. I felt a strange reaction in my body as I said those words. It was kind of relief mixed with despair.

"So that's what you wanted to tell me?" he asked looking to his left and shook his head softly. His indifference shattered all my expectations with regard to his feelings. Soon I bit my lips.

"I already knew ..." He acted with more coolness and fixed gray his eyes on my pale face.

"Did you know all this time?" quickly I raised an eyebrow. I asked as I stared at him. However, he continued looking in the other direction.

"I always knew ... from when we were on Earth," he confessed to me and bowed his head.

"And why have you never told me anything?" But I insisted and asked, crushed. My head shook as well.

"I thought it was not necessary for you to know I was aware of it," he explained and his voice sounded as cold as much as his indifference.

"It would have made things easier ...I would not have lost so many nights of sleep trying to find a way to tell you this," My head turned to the side , I looked at him as I revealed.

"It would have been worse." His voice was insensitive and his gaze was away.

For a second time I frowned at him as I was confused. Yeah, things needed to be said, but not that way. Basically Eros was compressing my heart and my feelings. That wasn't right.

"You would not only lose your sleep at nights ... but also would have lost your taste for life!" His voice sounded aggressive and he faced me gravely.

"What do you mean?" negativity came over me as I asked him.

"I cannot return what you feel for me." His voice was filled with anguish.

I sensed it hurt him to say those things. He did not want to see me suffer. So he did not let it show that he knew everything. He, being impartial, would have been easier for him than trying to convince me to give up that platonic love.

"Why?" I demanded. Things were not clear to me yet. What was his objection?

"Only humans are attracted to me," soon he answered coldly.

"I was human ..." I whispered unhappily and turned my head down.

"Now you aren't any longer," he replied impatiently. "You have to forget me!"

All I saw in that moment was Eros as he made a giant leap and his body of vampire -man turned into an owl. Then it flew into the sky and disappeared rapidly.

I lowered and crossed my arms over my chest as I was clinging to my despair and my pain.

What I feared had just happened.

I was not in him as he was in me.

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