Valkyrie - The Vampire Princess

Chapter 37

Chapter 37

Staying at the castle at that time, it was something irrelevant to me. My desire was to fade away and disappear forever from that place and never see anyone, not even Eros.

My life had lost purpose from the moment Eros told me those things, telling me to forget him, as if that were possible. The only way I found to destroy that love that was killing me was to leave. I had to leave to exist.

I walked against the lake. All my despair I deposited there, staring at it. That dark and still water...my life looked exactly like it.

A strong wind touched my pale face. My hair followed its steps, wildly. I felt like I was anesthetized. I did not pay attention to what was happening around me.

My first tears of blood rolled down my face and I didn't feel them.

I took several steps forward to dip my feet into the lake water, where I moved on, walking slowly. My body was consumed unhurriedly by the dark water of the lake. It came up to my waist, but I continued walking and it covered my face ... my head...

Afterward I disappeared completely.

Hours passed by and I did not react in the depths of the lake. I wanted it to make me close my eyes forever.

A huge snake, seven feet long, came creeping around the lake, entered the water and went to the bottom, moving with agility. It came against my loose body, as I was swaying from one side to the other. The serpent entwined its body around mine and took me back to the edge of the lake where I was dragged back up to the surface. The snake transformed from a crawling animal and took the form of a vampire.

Bizak took me in his arms. I stood with my head down, as I was unconscious.

My loose arms shook with his steps. He could move with such speed. Although he was a vampire, he preferred to walk without haste and keep me in his arms for more time, enjoying my splendid face. Our clothes were soaked with water. Pasted to our bodies, my dress in ivory was stained. The material had darkened due to the lake water.

Bizak took me back to the castle. The dry trees swayed from side to side and among them was an owl which was watching all our movements.

It watched Bizak walking ahead as he carried my body.

The owl flew up in the other direction, against the cloudy sky and disappeared into a gray smoke that appeared in the air.

***

Minutes later...

Bizak took me straight to my bedroom where I was placed under the care of Valeska. She changed my clothes and put me into my bed to rest. I slept less than I was expected to.

When I opened my eyes, I could see her sitting at my side, looking at me. At a glance I had a vision of my mother as if she were there beside me.

"Mom!" I murmured and looked up at Valeska.

"It's me....Valeska," she said and approached me, put her hand on my head and stroked my hair affectionately. "How are you?"

"...Well..." with difficulty I responded.

"Bizak took you out of the lake," she said as her gaze was on me.

"Was he there?" I asked and sat on my bed after that. My body was dolorous and my heart too much.

"Yes." She looked at me. "What did you want to do? Die?"

Nevertheless I did not answer her question. I put down my face as I realized everything had gone wrong.

"You cannot die ...You are 'immortal'!" She asserted and her voice was serious.

"There must be a way..." but I declared, staring at her face.

"Why do you want to die?" she asked.

"My life makes no sense ..." My eyes ran around. I confessed as my thoughts were on Eros and his hard words. He knew perfectly how to ruin my life.

"You're like this because of him?" She faced my unhappy demeanor. "Did you talk to him?"

"Yes, it was even worse than I thought," I confessed her, even not looking at her face.

"What did you tell to him?"

My sigh invaded our converse first. "All I feel for him."

"What did he say to you?" Valeska asked. She was anxiously awaiting my answer.

"He told me I must forget him," I responded and my eyes met the ground another time.

"So you do it!" she said, rose from my bed and walked across my room.

"He does not deserve your love. He does not deserve anyone's love," she declared coldly.

"Why do you say that? You encouraged me to go talk to him..."

I was confused at the change of Valeska's behavior, with her assumptions involving Eros. The day before, she seemed to want to join Eros and me.

"I thought it would be different with you..." she finally said.

"Different! What?" I asked, perplexed.

"He would be attracted to you, even though you are a vampire."

"Why didn't you tell me this?"

"I didn't want to discourage you," she sat on my bed again and held my hands. "You've fallen in love with him. I had no courage to tell you all that I knew."

"Why are only humans attracted to him?" I asked in agony.

"Didn't you ask him this?"

"I had no chance, he flew away."

"I also don't know, he never said why."

"I should have declared my love for him when I was human. Maybe everything would be different now," I murmured.

"Or not," she challenged. "You don't know for sure if he was attracted to you when you were still human."

"You're right. If I was human I would not have the assurance of his love," I agreed.

***

Hours later...

We shared dinner without the presence of Eros. It was the first time that his chair was empty after my arrival at that castle.

Inside me, I knew why he didn't appear at dinner. He didn't want to face me. Probably Eros thought I was being a burden in his life. Those thoughts made me feel worse. I had lost not only his love but his friendship.

The zeal he had for me when we were on Earth. All his approaches had always been very important in my life.

Perhaps I wouldn't have them any longer.

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