Mine (Book 2 of the His Series)

Forty-Four

Ellie

A few more weeks passed and I was getting more and more nervous about the impending results. I was getting bigger by the day, and the more days that passed, the more real that this situation was becoming. I was starting to get a pudge again and it wasn't because I was eating too much doughnuts. 

No matter how much I tried, day by day I was becoming attached to this baby. Even though I didn't yet know the father, it was hard not to fall in love with something that would soon become a part of your life. I honestly never thought I'd have children and now that I was faced with the very reality of having one of my own....I just wanted nothing more than to have something good in my life. Maybe then I could do right by my child and make sure that they didn't end up like me. I hoped to God it wasn't a girl....what if I wasn't a good enough mother to her? What if she got teased in school or shunned by the other kids? I didn't want a child like me who's esteem was so low that even dirt got better recognition. I was excited but I was scared too. Lord knows I'd never have the heart to abort my child....even if the possibility of her father was the man that raped me. I'd still love them like no other.

And what about Leo? He says he's ready to be a father, but what if it's too much for him and he disappears? 

How could I cope alone? 

Would I be able to cope alone? 

This was too much and it was starting to become hard to breathe...

"Hey, you alright?" Leo asked, walking into the room

"Yeah, I'm fine." I said quickly, getting up "I'm going outside."

"Ellie." He called in warning

I sighed and turned back around.

"You aren't fine." He said, softly grabbing me. "What's wrong?"

"You know, just thinking."

"You know how you get when you think too deeply about stuff. Come on let's get out of this dank hotel room and go out."

"Go where?"

"Wherever you want."

"Could we go to the mall?" I asked quietly

"Is that what you want to do today?"

"I just want to try things on and look around. Just feel like I'm doing something." I said

"We can do that love. Do you want to go now?"

"I'd like that."

In no time he was grabbing his shoes and slipping them on and giving me a jacket. And soon we were in his car heading towards the mall.

After parking and walking inside, the first store we hit was Debs. They always had great stuff and it was one of my favorite stores (they really do y'all!). I walked towards the plus sized section while Leo trailed close behind me.

"This store is so girly." He groaned

"Oh lighten up, spending ten minutes in here won't steal your manhood." I teased

"If I start telling you what shirt and shoes go great together I swear just smack me one good time."

I giggled as I looked through the clothing and soon noticed that they didn't really have anything, so we moved onto a few more stores. I finally found a Torrid and decided to go in there to try things on. I found this beautiful floral dress and a couple of other great pieces and decided to try them on as well. The first dress I tried on was a pink lace hi-lo styled dress the flowed over my body like water not clinging to anything. It really looked good on me, only thing is it was hard to zip it up.