Journey

Chapter One

It's  4:00 a.m, I can't sleep , my head hurt my eyes are drowning with tears I just felt the whole world turning against me. My parents don't give a shit about me , they think I'm worthless , they're not even my birth parents . They should've left me there to starve & die the day they took me in . I'm nothing and never will be . My "boyfriend" acts so new now that he is the most known guy around town , haven't heard from him in days ..... As tears flow down my face slowly I reached for my phone calling Damion ......... as I lay there knowing he won't answer  I wait to leave my 50th Voicemail "Dee , baby I need to talk I just need help, I need to hear your voice , call me back when you can , I love you . 

It's now 5:30 & I have to get up in less than an hour to catch the bus for school . "I'll just go and take a shower now" I thought to myself . As the warm water hit my back i feel the stings of where my father brutally lashed me with a belt for no reason at all last night . Flashbacks of every moment of my 11 years of life  with these foster parents , I wonder where my birth parents were ? Why didn't they want me ? Who was I with at the age of 6 before I suddenly became a foster child ? As I cut the water off and got out the shower I grabbed my towel and stepped out to feel a deep plunge in my stomach from what , I don't know til I raised my head from bending over in pain to see my father standing over me.
"Who the hell told you to get in the shower this early waking up your mom and I ?" He scoffed
"I-i " I dragged to get my words out as gasped for air still hurting from the punch .
"You what Jay? You don't pay know gotdamn bills in here you just don't do what the fuck you want when the fuck you want , get your dumbass up and get ready for school"
I got up quietly , & walked to the bed . I thought to myself  " I don't know why the punch even hurt , I should be used to it by now" I thought . As i pulled out some denim skinny jeans and a plaid shirt with a tank to match , I was thinking about becoming a new Journey Elyse Johnson , I want  to change everything about me , but I'm just the shy girl around school so nobody notices me any way .
I slid my feet in my rainbows and began walking out to the bus stop. It's only me and I have about 5 mins til the bus is here so I sit on the side walk and think about things I could do to this "new" Jay  to spice up her attitude.  I think I want to change my look , maybe a little hair cut and some new color , maybe I want to change my style maybe I want to look more older than 17 . As the bus pulls up with those flashing lights I erase my thoughts so quickly as if somebody could read them from my mind .
I walk to my seat to the bus being greeted by one of the only friends I have besides my "boyfriend" by him being be so popular you would think I know a lot of people and I'm known see that's the thing we are " lowkey "
he said he didn't want anyone in our business so know one knows about us.
"Hey girl" Zariah said as she primped with her pink glitter covered mirror ,
"Hey Zar"  I said as I sat down .
Zariah was the most beautiful girl at Ginger High , boys literally drooled over her and would do anything to get her attention , she could get any guy she wants but for some reason she turned all of them down .
"So you heard about that party Saturday?" Zariah asked happily
"Yeah I've heard but ya know I don't do the parties" I said frantically.
"C'mon it's just one party just come with me please" she begged
"I'll think about it ,okay" I said as I thought about this "new"Jay . I should really go if I plan on coming out of my comfort zone but that's a big step .
We soon pulled up to Ginger high , where every girl was just about pregnant and every guy denied of being fathers.