8/5/13

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by Clmsgal2

by Clmsgal2

Dear friend,

I just thought I would write to you, I don't care if you're not real or just from a book, I need to tell someone/anyone these things. None of my friends will listen, they used to, but I had a fallen out with one and they divided into two groups. That's why I started writing to you, when my life falls apart. I was hoping that I could tell you everything instead, to believe that There is a person that listens.

I will not be using any of my family's,friends, enimies real names as well as mine or places, as I do not want you to check me. Please, don't do that.

I should get back to the subject. My friend, lets call her Rose, had a fallen out with me and, if I'm honest, it really hurts.

She was one of my best friends, but I don't think friendship can last forever, can it?

It hurt me, but I suppose you just have to put on a brave face and survive. I think that's the main goal in life, no? To survive?

Rose started to ignore me, she wouldn't reply to any of my texts or talk to me in school. Which I find hurts me the most, considering we were best friends two days ago.

I'm sorry if this is boring you, but it really helps me.

I found out that 12 of my friends cut, including me. It helps me, it might not be the best way, but it releases stress. Rose used to cut too. Hers were very deep.

And today, in our form room, we had a class about stress and how we release it. I didn't say anything, neither did any of my friends.

Although, Maia, said that she couldn't come to me for stress advice, she knows about me. She also does it too. I don't know why everyone is picking on me for doing it. But I know you wouldn't, would you?

Some people just judge the book by it's cover without learning the story inside it, maybe if they paid attention to the story they would understand the cover, but I don't know.

I have really good friends like Nicolette, Eleanor and Danielle. They all are my closest friends, Rose used to be close, but she gave up on me. Can you blame her? I would've too.

I have a friend called Drake, who I think I'm getting feelings for. I don't mind the feelings, the only problem is he doesn't like me back, I think he likes Rose. Which Is sad since Rose is, sorry, was* my best friend.

I didn't learn much today in school, I did win the 200 metre race, though. Well, I drew. But I think I might take up running as a hobby, it clears my mind. As does guitar and piano.

I don't know why I'm telling you this, but I thought you should get to know me, I'm sorry. I'll write to you tomorrow, it's getting really late. But who am I kidding? I don't even sleep.

Love always,

Emma xx