The little Secret

14

Today was the day of the funeral . I got up form the bed . Went to take a shower sense I haven't for a week and looked like a hobo . I did my makeup and curled my hair . For the first time I looked somewhat  pretty. When I got there there was so much cars and all people wear black I wasn't sure if I could do this  . When I got inside of the church people were siting down . When I looked in the front of the room there a picture of  Lela smiling and look happy I cant believe this Is really happening. Tears started to fall of my face in tell I felt someone hands on my shoulder and I looked up it was Nate.

    Nate " how have you been I know this is hard for  you  me "  I'm getting better with out her but I still miss her lot . when I look at I didn't see that he was wearing a suit on  and a black tie he looked handsome if I had to say so my self . He toke my arm and we walked down the ail and sat were the sits had our names on  it   .  when  the man was talking about Lela I kind blinked out and I looked all around me I saw Cater and the boys I met in the hospital  and  Lela mom and some kids we knew and some people who babysat us and other people we new . After an hour of the man taking it was time for me to do my speech . My hands started to shake and Nate just looks at me and says " you will do great okay I believe in you ' I felt better when he said that .

: this is one of the hardest thing I had to do , my best friend no my sister that will always had my back and made sure I was okay . her not being her it hasn't warped around my head . I never felt a heat break before but loosing her felt like it . for some people in here new it was hard to keeps us apart * I point at betty that babysat us when we were little * but we will be back  together  some day . I have learned to life our life's to the fullest because it can be taken away just in a second . As some people said god only takes the good ones with him , I believe that know because he has one of the best people in here as I can say  :          When I was done I saw people crying because of my speech . when it was done people came up to me and told me I di a good job and sorry for your lost . After that long day I came home and just lay in my bed I got the a picture of me and Lela on my bed stand  and just curled up and fell asleep like that . I woke up with my whole body sweaty and when I looked at the clock it was only 12:45 so I got up went down to the kitchen and made some sweet tea . I put down my cup and turn on my computer and started to go on tumbler and stuff like that after 2 hours of it I got bored and went on YouTube.  the first people I see was Shane Dawson , Tyler Oakley and other people so I started to watch them . Before I new it was about  before I knew it it was 7:00 am so I got up and started to make some food .  When I sat down mom cam down  and said " wow honey your up early and your made food ." I just smiled at her an when I was done  I ran to my room and but some working out clothes. I kicked mom goodbye and told her I will see her later . When I got in the car Justin was playing and I found my self singing with the song and for the first time was happy . When I got out of my car I go in to the dance studio .  I got into a room that wasn't being used and just dance my heart out and played Chris brown