Dear Ryan,
I know what I say to you is from my heart and that is it.
I am also know that I am ashamed of my feelings. I should be over you but I'm not. Most guys I'm over in a few days, but your different I don't know why.
You always make me feel happy. I should really hate you but I don't.
I really should have not talked to you again. Somehow I hoped you would remember what we had before you hurt me and yet I forgave you.
I don't know how much of my feelings are for yoh but I don't think I can see myself get hurt anymore.
I do care about you a lot but I know you don't give a shit about me.
You have no idea how you make me feel.
With lots of love
G.C
