Secrets (Jelsa)

Chapter 14-Why me?

Jack has been here now for what I think is an hour, it has been wonderful having Jack here with me and talking to someone other than the icy walls. He's been telling me all the gossip that's going on and how jealous Mavis is that she's getting little attention. I can't tell him Mavis was responsible for all this, he'll probably go crazy. I've decided to keep it a secret from both Anna and Jack, it'll be safer for everyone that way.

"Jack? It's been lovely having you here but you need to go." I whisper.

"What!? Why?"  

"Because I want to be alone remember. You can come only one day a week how about that?"

"No, I can't leave you like this! You can barely walk!"

"Jack, I'm fine now go." I make hand gestures pointing to the door.

"Are you sure?"

"Positive." I hug him goodbye and wave him goodbye at the door. As I'm watching him walk down the snowy mountain and slowly out my sight I feel a great pressure. I'm alone. I hesitantly close the large door and walk to the safety of my room (Well an ice thing I call my room) I walk in and lay on my bed, I stare at the only photo I have. It's one of me, Jack, Anna and Kristoff, It's a lovely photo but it only makes me remember how much I miss them.

As I'm walking through the empty palace I keep getting these sinking feelings, I'm not safe here. I know it's safer for everyone else but Mavis knows I'm here and weak, and she could come back at any moment. I walk to my balcony on the far side of the palace and vaguely make out the small village that was 5 miles away, I open my hand and allow a snowflake to drift away in the wind. I watch it drift away as a unique individual and into the small village. I slide down the cold rail and play with my ice making a miniature Anna. 

I can't express how much I do miss them but if I went back now I'll be putting them in danger. Who knows if I'd freak out or if Mavis does something to them? I could never be sure and that's why I can't come home. I stand up wiping the  small tears form my face and continue walking through the palace. I just have to keep telling myself it's for the best. I look down at my reflection on the floor, why do I have to have this 'gift'? Ha, gift? More like a curse! Everyone says "Elsa have more confidence" or "Elsa you're lucky to have this power" But what do they know? Are they the ones scared for their every step? Are they the ones who can't loose it otherwise you'll hurt someone? No, didn't think so.

How did it come to this, all I want is to fit in and have a friend. Or at least not be the freak in school. Is that too hard to ask? 

"What did I do?" I shout "Why am I cursed to be this way?!" I must look crazy, I'm screaming at nothing and nobody can see me. "Why can't I just wake up from this consistent nightmare?" I trail off, "Please! Or at least make me a safer person to be around." I stop shouting and crying, throwing my fist at the ground causing another layer of ice to come on top of the ice all ready there.