Our After

Tobias is shirtless

This chapter's going to get real awkward. Like really awkward. Just saying. Btw you're going to read a really fangirl moment. Tris will sound like us. Okay, on to the story!

Tris' POV

We drive back home in silence. I don't want it to be quiet, it only makes me think about the condition my friends are in. But if we talk, it's just going to lead right to what I don't want to think about.

"So am I feeding Miao when we get home, or are you?" He asks.

"Um, I don't know. I'll feed her." It goes quiet.

"Tris, there's something that we haven't really discussed." He says after about 20 seconds.

I turn to face him with a small smile. "I'm all ears."

"We haven't really talked about, er, you know, having kids." He says. I don't really know how to respond.

"Umm...."

"If you aren't ready, I respect your choice. But I'd like an idea of when you might be ready to start a family." As he says this, I cross my ankles.

"I think that before I start having kids, I should be married. My aunt had a kid with her boyfriend and then they split up when she was 2. (A/n: that's what happened in my family with one of my aunts) I don't want us to end up like that. And honestly, I need to start looking for a job so I know for sure that we'll be able to support the child."

"Okay. I'm fine with that. I have one more question though. Are you still a virgin." He asks. As a 22 year old, I don't know if I should be ashamed of what the answer is or if I should be proud. I am a virgin. I've been holding onto my v-card for someone special. I don't want a "just because" sex. So I won't have that experience. Should I lie and say that I had sex a long time ago? Or should I be honest and tell him I'm still a virgin?

"I'm still a virgin." I say. Christina made me too good of a person. Stupid honesty is always the right answer.

"Okay." He says. That's it?

"What about you, Tobias?" I ask. I'm pretty nervous to find out the answer. If he says that he's done, you know, then it'll be a little more awkward. If not, I'll probably be more relieved.

"No." He replies. My heart sinks. I turn to face the window. I thought I would be his first and last. That doesn't happen in life though. Fairy tales are shit.

"In high school, before you came, I was with Healani. We had sex like a month before school started but then broke up soon afterwards. It ended up being that she just wanted to get in my pants, which kind of sucked."

"Oh, okay." I say. I don't know what else to say. It's not like I can just say something along the lines of,' Why would you have sex with another girl and then be with me?'.

He did it, and I don't know if he regrets it but I shouldn't care. The rest of the ride home is truly silent. Once we he parks the car on the driveway, I blot out to the door unlock the house, grab Miao from next to the door where she was waiting, and sprint to the bathroom. I cry for a little bit. I don't even know why! The feels aren't supposed to hit me this hard anymore. I strip down to my underwear and turn on the shower. I pet Miao's head and then let him go by opening the door just enough for her to leave. Once the water is hot enough, I step into the shower and reflect on the past few years of my life. Am I the only one who does this? I hope not.

I thought high school was so innocent. Well, innocent to a certain extent. I don't really know what I was thinking. He's smart, handsome, actually has a great personality. Any girl could want him. He could have any girl he wanted, really I'm really lucky that he's stayed with me this long. I can't tell if a tear rolls down my cheek or if it's just the shower water. I put a tiny bit of conditioner in my thick blonde hair and then shut off the hot water. Without looking, I grab my red and black striped towel and dry myself. I wrap the towel around my body since I forgot a change of clothes. I don't need Tobias seeing me naked at the moment.

I walk out of the humid room and see Tobias laying on our bed... shirtless. God damn it! I bite my lower lip softly. Tris, just turn away, don't look at him. That's not going to help you in this situation. My drawer is only a couple feet away, that can't be too hard to get to. But Tobias seems to notice my presence and pretty much jump out of the bed right in front of me.

"Tris, I didn't want to hurt your feelings. I know that that's exactly what I did but I didn't want to lie to you. If I could take back what I did that summer, I would. Can you forgive me?" He says almost rushed.

"Sure." I say just before I'm brought into a tight hug. He mummers thank-yous in my ear. I would hug him back, but he pinned my arms down. He kisses my forehead and we stay like this for a long time.

"Hey, I have two things to tell you. Well, first of all, I fed Miao while you were in the shower." I nod my head as he speaks and then breaks away from the hug to go grab 2 things, a video camera and a small black box. Oh my gosh, is this actually happening? He turns the camera on and and faces it towards me and gets on a knee.

"Beatrice Angelica Prior, you are unlike any girl I've ever met or dated. You are the most exciting love I've ever had. I think I've loved you since we were kids, but I never really knew my feelings. This is probably also one of the most awkward proposals in the history of proposals since we're both pretty much half naked, but probably the most important one that I've ever know of in my life. I can't think of anyone else to spend the rest of my life with or anyone else that I would want to have my children with and I'm willing to wait as long as it takes until you say yes to the question I'm about to ask. Beatrice Angelica Prior, will you marry me?" He says. Damn, did he just come with this or did he actually think through this and write it? Because that is the most beautiful thing anyone has ever said to me in my 22 years of life.

"Yes, yes, a million times yes!" I say and run over to him and hug him. For the most part, my towel has fallen down to my waist. I hope he didn't get that part on camera. But I'm so happy right now! We've had a break soon after high school when we were going to different colleges but then we got everything set up and now we're here, hugging, engaged, happy. They say that your wedding day is the happiest day of your life, but I think that the happiest day is when he proposes to you because you find out that you really are wanted.

He slips a necklace around my neck and leaves it hanging. I caught a glimpse of it when he was giving his speech of love. It is made of silver and has a red heart in the middle a a couple small, black rose around it. Truly amazing, the simplicity yet complexity of the necklace embodies me perfectly.

"Nice to know you don't like the idea of a mainstream diamond ring." I say while smiling.

"Give me a hint Tris, do you love it or hate it?" He asks.

"I love it almost as much as you, despite how cheesy I just sounded." We both laugh.

"Yeah, that was really cheesy."

We get up and I fix my towel. It's still weird to be naked in the same room as him. Like, I hugged him with my bare chest, that should be enough, right? I grab my clothes and since he's in the room, I face away from him as I change into my long-sleeved pj's. It's tight fitting, but warm because there's a fluffy layer on the inside of the pants at least. On the shirt, the neckline is a super dark blue and it has buttons. It is one of my favorite pajamas, honestly.

I place my hand on the cool necklace and smile. It doesn't go with everything, but I'm not taking it off. Tobias takes my hand and we go downstairs and watch Scorch Trials for the millionth time. I don't even jump while watching it anymore. I used to jump out of the seat but I just stay curled into Tobias side and he keeps his arm around me. Awwwwe I ship us. This is a perfect Kodak moment. Miao hops up with us and sits in Tobias' lap after circling around a couple times, finding the perfect spot. I hope everyone is okay by now, at least by the time the sun sets.

Guys, I've been listening to "Same Old Love" by SG and it's so gooooooooooood. Like wow! I know you guys waited a long time so I tried to make the update pretty long. It's about 1600 words. Hope that satisfies. Some credits go to Veronica Roth.☺️