Gone - A 5SOS fanfic

Prologue

"Luke, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry I didn't see the slight little messages you'd use on me, the little subliminal messages I'd go through the days of not knowing what they truly meant. You'd tell me things and I wouldn't think anything of it. I should have thought about them and understood what you meant then maybe we wouldn't be in the mess we are in now.

I mean, I just want you to be here with me, to give me your amazing hugs and tell me everything will be okay like you would usually do if I was upset or whenever you knew something was wrong. I  guess I'm lucky to call you my best friend, thats if you still class me as it. The argument we had, well, I'll never forget it. I'll never forget the fury in your eyes when I told you what happened and you flipped, yelling so loud the neighbours could probably hear. I should have listened to you before, the amount of times you'd tell me to end it and I would just nod my head then do nothing about it. You knew what was best for me, and I apologise for that also, I apologise for not listening. 

I blame myself for all of this, if it wasn't for me, you'd be out of that hospital bed, living your life to the fullest. We'd be probably be at maccas with Nakitta and the boys then we'd head off to mine for a movie night, like we use to. I miss us all arguing about what movie to watch. I miss you as a whole; how we'd go to the cinema together and my parents were so comfortable with you being round at mine, helping yourself to the food in our fridge. It still baffles me how you can be so skinny and eat so much. You got on with my brother so well, I'd come home from being out with Nakitta and you'd be with him playing Fifa on his Xbox.

I guess the things I'm mentioning are just little memories I'll never forget; memories I'll live with forever. What I'm trying to say is please wake up Luke, squeeze my hand if you hear me at all, tighten your fingers around mine and wake up then you can be discharged and we can forget this ever happened.

It's not long now until they have to turn off your life support machine, 5 days now. If you don't wake up, the next 5 days will be the longest and most upsetting days I'll ever have to endure, then the days without you in my life will be harder.

Please Luke, just wake up.

I'm sorry."