I almost say it before I go to sleep, and before I leave. It's something that just naturally comes out and I can't stop. Sometimes I sit there and think "Wow I love him" and even when were texting something silly to each other or see a silly picture of you I think it. I think of how I don't want to not see your silly faces anymore or how I don't want to not be able to squeeze you anymore.
That will be the biggest downfall of my life, I don't think you or anyone knows how much you mean to me. Or how important you are to me. It scares me how much you mean to me, everything just scares me because it's all such an unfamiliar feeling, all of it is, and it's not bad it's just such a strange good feeling.
I need you so much, I just need your presence, knowing you're near me is just what I want. I want you. And everything you come with, I want your stress, your tiredness, your irritation, sadness, happiness, everything. I just want everything. I want to share this life with you, because I'll never know how many days I'll have left but knowing I spent most of them with you will give me such a forever in a small time.
I just can't manage to get enough of you, and I can't stop thinking of you. And all of this feels like repeated words but I feel like I need to say all of this to you but nothing comes out.
