I sat at the table with a bouncing knee. It was undeniable how badly I was upset. But I had to keep calm because I was in a public place. "Will you just calm down?" She asked looking at me.
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"Calm down? No Najah I won't. Who in they right mind just one day decides to not be in their child's life? I mean I completely get it if you didn't want to be with me but damn you left my son with no idea as to what was going on. I was the one who tucked him in at night, and took him to his first day of school, wiped his tears not you. So don't tell me to calm down because you don't know half of the shit I've had to do alone."I snapped. "I get it Cameron, I really do. I made a mistake but what you won't do is hold that against me by not letting me see my son. That's wrong." "Fuck that. What's wrong is you up and leaving him with no logical reason why. What's wrong is the fact that you didn't call him once. What's wrong is you've missed not one, not two, but three of his birthdays. So am I really wrong for not letting you see him? Because if im so wrong I'm just really curious to what you think you are." I said looking her dead in the eyes.
She was different now. She was the same girl I once wanted to marry and spend the rest of my life. Shit I really couldn't even call her my sons mother because Micayla was more of that to him than she was.
"Well let me make myself loud and clear. I know you have a girlfriend. And I know she lives with you. We can go about this one or two ways. You get ready of her and I won't take this to court. Or you keep her little ass around and I will just take it through court and we see just who wins. You choose." She said. I hated that she had something against me. I couldn't afford to lose my son. But I didn't want to lose my relationship either. But anywho who knew me, knew that nothing and no one came before Corey. "I'll let you know when we can meet up and arrange something. Don't come with the mindset that you'll see him 5 days a week, nah. I'll let you know the amount of time I feel suitable for you to spend with him." I said.
"So does that mean you're going to leave that young girl alone?" She questioned. "I'll call you when I'm ready." I said ignoring her question completely and leaving the restaurant heading home.
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I sat on the couch while Empire played on the tv. The front door opened and in walked Micayla. She sighed putting her keys and purse down on the table. "Long day?" I asked. "Yes." She said plopping down on the couch next to me. "I'm sorry love." I said taking her shoes off. And then her apron.
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We sat and watched tv for about an hour and then I figured no point in putting this off any longer. "Have you looked into getting your own place?" I asked. She looked at me without saying a word. "You told me not to." "Yeah I know. But it's a lot about to go on. And I don't want you caught in the middle and I think it's probably best if--" "You're lying." She said cutting me off and sitting straight up. "What?" "You are lying. I mean just be real. You want me to move out. That's fine I can do that." She said standing up ready to walk away. I grabbed her wrist. "Man come here." I said noticing the tears on her cheeks. "You don't even know what's going on and you getting all upset and shit. Will you at least let me explain and then we figure something out?" I asked pulling her to me. "What is it? Don't beat around the bush." I sighed letting her go and rubbing my face. "My baby moms hit me up not too long ago asking if she could start back seeing Corey again. I said no. And she threatened to take it to court. I can't go to court. Because of my past. They'll look at that and take Corey away from me with no hesitation. She said she wouldn't take me to court under one condition..." I said. "If we break up."
Before I could even get anything out she walked right past me and up the stairs I followed behind. I got to my room and noticed her placing her things in a duffle bag quickly. "What are you doing man? Chill out." I said grabbing her hands. "You saying chill out and I'm not mad just disappointed." She said continuing to pack. "You act like I planned this shit. It's just as much a surprise to me that it is to you. But you gotta understand--" "That you're doing what's best for you son. I'm not knocking you for that. If it was me, I'd do the same. You don't have to explain anything to me. I get it." "Micayla, I was going to suggest you move out but that doesn't mean we cant still be friends." "Actually it does. I hate I ever even came to you that night." She said zipping the bag and preparing to leave but I grabbed her. "Don't say that. That's like saying you regret being with me over something I can't control. And I just don't want you leaving on bad terms." "It's whatever, it was good while it lasted." She said hurrying out the door.
I sat down on the bed running my fingers through my curls. Why me?
