Poem From A Troubled Depressed Teenager

4th Part

1.I see people on street who do need help I see the way people ignore them and not realize what pain they must feel and what they've gone through I hate when they say they were a soldier but yet no one helps them but they helped us live they fought for us but whos fighting for them.

2.I see the evil that lurks in the shadows waiting to devour me I see the the Devil waiting at the end of the road for me and knowing I can do nothing to prevent it no matter what I do I know the Devil will wait till it's my time it does not scare me that I'm going to hell to live among the Devil knowing I'm ready is what scare me most.

3.Loving someone is hard when he hugs and kisses you telling you how much he adores you but when he says that you think to yourself and wonder if he will honor his word and when he doesn't it hurts knowing he feed you lies but knowing he was not worth your tears and knowing there is someone better out there and when you meet him and he honors everything you know you found the one guy you can love for ever and you know he'd never hurt you.

4.As I awake I see him next me and wonder what I did to deserve a guy like him knowing I have sinned and knowing what I do wrong I do not understand why he stays he makes my heart race and he is the reason I smile each day he is what keeps me going he is my everything and I'll never let go.

5.The path I follow is into the shadows I am among others who are outsiders and do not fit in but do not care I walk a lonely road not knowing where I'm going to end up I see the way the darkness has taken my life into it's hands I see the way it controls me I see where it's gotten me and when I realize I must stop this madness I am aware that I am to late and for all the sins I have commit I bought myself a one way ticket to the devil himself and no matter how much I try I know it will not change and now I'm stuck in the darkness but with the little light that has shined over me I know I'll be alright.

6.I have gotten to the point in my life when people will judge me for what I do or what I've done to myself like dye my hair and pierce myself but I don't care anymore I'm done, people say be yourself but they don't always mean it cause when when you do they judge you and I know they might not like it but I do and I'm proud to who I am.

7.I do not fear death nor the devil I would have no problem leaving my life behind cause I know I'd finally be happy for once but I know it is not my time and it sucks most people run away from death and fear it but I run towards it, the thing I fear is leaving the ones I love behind full of sorrow and pain but that is how I feel all the time and to know I'm ready to die and or get hurt badly but that is what scares me most knowing I'm ready I'd do anything just to not feel my pain, loneliness, anger, sadness and depression I feel alone in the world and I know I am I'm just ready Are you ?