Arrow: League of Assassins This is My Arsenal

Felicity's Choice.

I stepped on the roof where Sara died, I walked toward a black figure in the darkness. I was shaking, I never done this before. But I want Oliver back so bad, I want to feel his touch, his kisses on my lips. My hands were trembling so fast I thought they could generate heat in this coldness. I wrapped my jacket tighter.
"I want to make a deal." I said firmly.
The black figure turned to me. "We do not take prisoners nor your petty deals." It was a woman's voice, strong, but she seemed so lost in despair.
"I want Oliver Queen back."
"Al-Sahim is off Limits." She started to walk away.
"Wait." I stepped forward. "I can give you his apprentice."
She laughed, "Roy Harper? Why would Ra's Ul' Ghul want with shop lifter?"
"Because he's younger, and talented, probably better. With the league's training he can be fit to be Ra's Ul' Ghul. Don't you think?"
She was thinking.
"He beat six of you assassins Thalia." I grew impatient.
That ticked her off at the same time impressed her, "Fine. I will talk with my father."
She walked away and vanished into the darkness of the night.
ARROWCAVE.
"Is she gonna do it?" Dig turned to me.
"She's gonna talk it over with Ra's." I answered "is this wrong?"
"What?"
"Trading Roy's life for Oliver's."
"Like it or not Felicity, we need Oliver here, without him the city is falling apart, and Roy--"
"What?"
"Roy's dead weight with out Oliver. We can manage."
I agreed, but I feel this guilt looming over me, like its gonna shoot me in the heart at any moment. This was my idea. To tell the truth I couldn't wait to see Oliver again. I wanted to feel his warmth his kisses again.
I just looked at the computer screen, to see what time it was. 1:00 A.M.
"You should get some sleep." I nodded, Dig walked with me, as I shut off the main power. "Do you want me to walk you home?" He asked.
I felt bad I said yes, it was a cold winter night. I feel like they were watching me. Especially me. "No go home Dig Lyla's probably worried."
"At least to your car."
I nodded. We walked silently.
"We'll get him back right?"
"Yeah we'll get Oliver back. Don't worry."
I hugged Dig, and got into my car. I drove to my apartment. I winced at the cold wind, and ran inside her warm apartment.
I quickly took off my jacket and put down my purse and keys and started to warm a cup of milk. I went into the bedroom and started to unclothe.
"Felicity."
"Oh my god!" Thank good I still had my bra and panties
I knew that voice very well.
"Nyssa? What are doing here?"
"My father, I heard you done a deal. What kind?"
"Why do you care?"
"Felicity! What deal!"
"Trade. Roy for Oliver."
Her face was straight, disappointed at Me, "he's only a kid!"
"I know!"
"Do you know what will happen to him! Hell Felicity. Hell. For Roy's sake death is better option."
"Nys-"
She was gone.
Ding! I heart jumped. I fell down powerless.
What have I done?