The One That Got Away

Part 1

My eyes were playing a trick on me, I mean they had to be. I had a fake smile plastered across my red lips, I couldn't believe it, of all the people that was in my house, it was Him! How did he end up in my house!
I kept stealing glances at a man I assumed was probably dead by now. But here's the thing he just wasn't any man, he was the man I once loved. A man I haven't seen or heard from in over twelve years. How was he here? why was he here! How was he here with my best friend!

"Aww Shay! I love it!" Alec exclaimed when he opened up my gift, It was my husband's birthday, and my ex lover was eating a piece of chocolate cake right across from me.
Fuck!

Why was this happening?
How was this happening.
Did he know?
Did she know?
The fuck!
I tried stealing another glance, but when I caught the shift of his eyes, I turned my attention back to Alec. My heart was thudding against my chest, I swear it felt like it was going to beat right out. I caught him looking at me!
The sound of the party became white noise the only thing I could hear was the sound of blood rushing to my ears, I felt dizzy and sick to my stomach, I thought I was going to faint.
But before I did a pair of lips on mine brought me back. "You okay baby?" Alec asked concern clouding his big brown eyes.
I felt a surge of guilt run though me.

"Yeah." I lied forcing a smile. I needed to get away from this table I needed to clear my mind. "I'll be right back." I said getting up.
I took several deep breaths, when I entered the kitchen I just couldn't wrap my brain around it, Dominic was here, he's in my house I was not expecting for him to be in my house and apparently married!
my mind started to conjure up the past, and I needed to push it back. But I just couldn't.

***
My eyes glazed over as he pulled away from the best kiss in the world, I stared at his beautiful full pink mouth, if Godiva and Hershey's had a lovechild, it still wouldn't taste as good as him.

"Shay Dawson, there's something that's been eating at me for the longest time and I think it's time for me to yell it to the world!" He said giving me his best mega-watt toothy smile that I adore so much.

I smiled back at him, this man was like a heart eating infection. Once he was in your bloodstream there was no getting him out!
"And what's that Mr Lovefield?"
I smirked longing for his tongue to be back in my mouth.

"I love you!" He yelled to the top of his lungs, he than looked all around the beach making sure nobody, or somebody heard him.
But then he did it again, and this time much louder catching the attention of a couple walking down the shoreline, they immediately started to giggle.

"I fucking love you!" He grabbed my face in both of his hands and kissed me. Murmuring the sweetest words that would one day ruin me forever. "I will always love you Shay and I'm not ashamed of it, you are my light you guide me through my darkness, you give me reason to breathe!"

Dominic ran a large strong hand through my ink black hair, blue eyes sparkled like the ocean, I smiled back at him and kissed him hard whispering into his mouth.
"I. Love. You!"
***

God hates me, I just know it!
I'm a good person, good people don't deserve this kinda punishment, I couldn't believe he was married. I couldn't believe she was married to him!
Of all the fucking people in the world.
Apparently they met each other on some sort of dating app, I placed my head in my hands, leaning against the granite countertop, trying to calm my nerves down.
There was over twenty people in my house, and I was having a nervous breakdown.

"Baby come into the game room, we're gonna start playing beer pong!" Alec called out, I didn't reply I just didn't trust my voice right now. I needed to get my shit together, I needed wine. Wine... Yes wine will help!
I turned around to one of the dark-wood cabinets reached up and grabbed a wine glass.