The One That Got Away

Part 13

"Shay, oh god I love you!"
He turned me to face him, he kissed me digging his fingers into my hair.

I wanted to freeze time, freeze this moment, always come back to it.

Me in his arms, relaxing in this tub after the most amazing mind blowing sex one could have, and listening to a confession that I only ever dreamt about.

The sweet lyrics of Adele's - All I Ask, murmured softly in the background.

This was perfect!

"I never stopped loving you Dom, I just learned how to live without you?"

"Was you really that messed up after us?"
He asked running soap up and down my arms.

"I was destroyed, my heart hurt every time I seen pizza!"
I exclaimed widening my eyes.

"I know what you mean, I couldn't eat cupcakes without wanting to cry!"

We laughed, I kissed him once more and stared into his eyes that pretty much said everything we wasn't.

"I'm sorry I wasn't there,"
He tucked a wet piece of hair behind my ear.

"It killed me waking up in an hospital bed, to find out you were nowhere to be found, I lost everything Dom when I lost you?"

"Rabbit, I'm sorry I know it's way past due but I'm so sorry, I don't know fully what went on that whole night, but what Dante threatened me with, well I'll never be able to give you back what I allowed you to lose."

"Fuck Dante, he was the reason for that whole night!"
I felt anger wash over my peaceful emotions, turning them into rage with just the thought of that evil devil!

He hugged me tight, and kissed my shoulders.
Tears slowly started to leak out, my heart hurt so much remembering the night that had changed everything.

"I'm so sorry Shay, I know he was the blame and don't worry baby I already got a plan, I already got a plan."
He rocked me back and forth, fighting away my ugly demons that still resided in my souls.

***
I refuse to let my baby grow up in a family full of Italian killers!

I refuse to let my daughter watch her father come home in the middle of the night with someone's cold blood on his hands.
I thought he was changing, I thought it finally sunk in he was given a second chance.

I stood by his side, I allowed myself the abuse I believed the boy I loved was still in there somewhere?

But last night was my wake up call, after he hung up on his father.
I over heard him saying something about 'putting out a contract' and knew exactly what that meant.

Dom would never admit it, but he couldn't do a clean up job sober, once orders was given to take someone out, he left the house immediately.

I wanted to live my life peaceful with a family, never looking over my shoulder.

And when he came home that night around five in the morning, of course high and covered in blood.
I knew I could never have that life for my child.

He was born into the most well known underground mafia family there was, the entire Chicago feared them.

But Dom himself wasn't a born killer, he was taught to be heartless, he was the future mob-boss in the making.