Need You Now (Watty Awards 2014)

Chapter 8

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                     I didnt have anymore nightmares for the rest of the night. I slept like a freakin baby and when i woke up it felt so good to still be in Jacob's arms. His smell of pure vanilla and honey, with a touch of Raplp Lauren colone made my insides feel warm and i felt utterly safe. My eyes were a little hard to open from the cry-crust. I was suprised to wake up to him staring at me. He smiles and whipes my eyes for me. His fingers slowly trace my lips and i kiss them. 

"No more nightmares?" He asks. His voice is like a blanket surrounding a caressing me.

 "No nightmares." I whisper as i connect my lips with his. Its not a long, passionate kiss, but enough to send a burst of energy through me. He comes up laughing and sits up, shirtless. God Almighty, his body was fine. I had to tear my eyes away from him as i sat up in bed and started towards the door. 

"Where you going?"

"I smell bacon and pancakes! My favorite combination," i laugh as i run to the kitchen, Jacob following close behind me. He catches up with me and grabs my hand as we sit at the table.I dont think i've eaten breakfast since Robert was alive so the smell made me sigh in satisfaction. His parents are no where to be seen. Probably at work. I fix myself three pancakes and about twenty pieces of bacon and some apple juice. I was seriously obsessed with apple juice. Any chance i can get to drink apple juice, i take advatage of it. Since Mother knows i like it so much she stops buying it to torture me. Bitch. 

           i literally swallow my food i'm so hungry. Jacob laughs at me and kisses my cheek. This was the biggest mistake i had ever made. I basically am bringing Jacob into my horrid home life by letting him come closer to me. I know sooner or later he will want to know more about me. All i can do is keep him at arms' length and hope that he doesn't push it over the edge. 

"When do you want me to drop you off at?" he asks as he pinched my knee. I giggle and stop when he says that. I dont want to go home to be completley honest? How will i get inside the house without Mother seeing me??? 

"When i'm done eating. Could you just bring my clothes to school? Or just drop them off in my locker if i'm not there?" 

"Why wouldn't you be there?" He asks as he has a worried shadow in his eyes. I ignore it. 

"Just in case i get sick or something." He nodds but i'm scared for my life. I should just get him to drop me off in the back of the house so i can sneak in through the secret entrance to the closet. I keep it there for emergencies. You can't get out of the closet through it but you can get into the closet with it. I finished my bacon and gathered my hair in a messy bun. I grab Jacobs hand and take him to his room. 

"What's wrong, Sarah?" He asks. I see the shadow in his eyes and it literally breaks my heart. I shake my head and grab his neck. 

"Just kiss me before i go okay?" i whisper as his lips leap onto mine. His kiss is so passionate and hot that i never want it to end. There are sparks going through my body all the way down to my toes and he throws me on the bed. And for some reason, if i give myself to him right now, i woudn't really care. He would have a part of me and i would have a part of him. It would let me know that i was safe. 

               His hands are everywhere and i have to focus on where they are going. Mine too are reaching for his hair as i pull for his pleasure. I hear him moan and giggle. I wrap my legs around him as he pulls up from the kiss and he is hovering over me, panting. I realize he's asking me and i smile and nodd. 

             He makes love to me and i swear i feel as if everything is okay. Its perfectly fine. No more Mother, no more hurting. Just sweet, Jacob and me. There is nothing in the world but us but yet as i am thinking all of these beautiful, glorious thoughts, i am shaking with fear. What am i doing? He's gonna want more. He's gonna want information. He's going to want to know my entire life. But i can't give him that. All he can have is arms' length. Is that's what's best for him? I only want the best for him, but at the same time all i want is him. I enjoy the last few minutes and we soon just lay there, panting and wrapped in each others arms. I never wanted to leave. 

"Are you okay?" He asks. I don't know why but i immediatley burst into tears. He grabs my face and whips my tears but there are too much. 

"Sarah! I'm sorry okay!!! I didn't mean to! Please dont hate me!!" He screams and i just shake my head. 

"NO! I'm not....crying because....of that. I'm ccrying bbeecause of....mee. Youuu shoulllddn't have me," And that was the truth. Jacob shouldn't have me. He deserves someone who will give him everything. Not someone who is going to lie and keep secrets from him. He hugs me again and just strokes my hair as i cry into his bare chest. He scratches and rubbs my back and i feel my tears slow down. Once i am done crying we put our clothes on and we walk to his car. We ride there in silence but not the silence that couples hate. But the ones that you are just holding hands and enjoying each others company. 

            We approach my home and i tell him to park in the back. He gives me a puzzling look and i sneak out the car. I blow him a kiss and run to the secret entrance. The door leads me to the closet and i pretend to sleep as i hear footsteps coming to the closet. I pray to God in Heaven that she will believe the story.