Need You Now (Watty Awards 2014)

Chapter 14

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         I felt a strong grib go around my wrist and quickly retract it, rubbing it to get the feeling of his hand off. I turn around and his eyes are full of hurt and confusion. I wanted so bad to kiss it all away and embrace him and tell him everything was a mistake and i shouldn't have stood him up yesterday. But i didn't. I couldn't. I had to live with the pain in my heart. And he would have to learn to let me go sooner or later. 

"Sarah, what happened to you yesterday? Did something happen?" He asked. I soon realized that he wasnt even upset that i ditched him yesterday. All he was conserned about was if i was okay. If i was well. Why? Let him know that you don't care about him. He wants you. You have to disappoint him. 

"No. Nothing was wrong." I replied, totally nonchalant. This threw him back a step and i knew my brain's plan was working. He was hurting, and letting me go. Exactly what i needed. No, i'm not saying it's what i want. This is definatley and absolutley not what i want. This is the last thing i want to do to him but it has to be done. It's for the better. 

"Sarah, I don't get. What's going on?" He asked, still following me as i headed to my next class. God, why isn't he giving up? Tell him what he won't expect. 

"Look, Eddie that kiss was great. But it wasn't anything special. It meant nothing. It was just a kiss. Is that why you are so confused and bothering me so much? Because to be quite honest its really starting to aggravate the crap out of me," i hiss back at him. Its as if i've slapped him across the face. He stubbles back a step. I felt the bile rise in my throat but swallow it back. I couldn't let him see through me. I couldn't let him see what was really going on in my head. I couldn't let him see how much i wanted to appologize and just run away with him as if everything was going to be okay. But it's not okay. It's never going to be. 

"Sar, I um, didn't know. I uh, was just making sure you were okay," He spit out. His face was pale from hurt and rejection. Good. Now break the chains.

"I'm fine. See you later, Eddie," I said, totally and utterly confident and walk into class with the fakest smile on. 

                I sit in my desk, and if you first glanced at me, you would think everything is fine. That i was fully prepared for class, and totally into what the teacher was talking about. That my life was absolutley perfect with the perfect boyfriend, the perfect looks, the perfect friends, the perfect grades, the perfect everything. But you would be so wrong. Nobody knew how much i wanted to run out of here and just cry. How much did i want to run out of here and just.....die. I wanted nothing more than just to escape Earth. 

               Chelsea had drove me to school this morning but i grabbed my stuff from her car and started walking. I didn't feel like seeing her and Markis so happy together. It turns out after they did "it" (you know) Markis stayed. He stayed with her and actually he was the one who told her that he loved her and that they should wait to have "it" again. That way they wouldn't be going so fast and they could become stronger as a couple. You have no idea how much crap Chelsea gave me about that. She practically stuffed it in my face! I didn't deserve that. I was only trying to help her. Everyone was just as suprised as i was. 

            I just wanted time for myself. I wanted to be alone. I've never been alone a day in my life. I'm either with Mother, her beating me or watching my every move, or with Chelsea, Erin, and Taylor. 

              I realized as i was walking home, that i didn't want to go home. I didn't want to go back into that house. I knew i would have to sooner or later but i didn't want to go there just yet. I would rather get beaten harder and less frequent than get beaten more often and just as hard. I stayed on an unknown road until i came up to a huge house, screaming music. There were beer bottles all over the yard and i knew immedialty that it was a party. A huge one in fact. I'm suprised Chelsea didn't tell me about it. 

             I walked up to the mailbox and realized that it was Eddie's home. Huh, never would have known he was a partier. Without debating with myself, i walked straight into the home. The smell of sweat, and alchohol immediatley drifted to my nose. I didn't even wince. I want to be used to this scent. I breathed it in proudly. 

"Hey babe, where did your sexy self come from?" A tall blonde, totally wasted asked. He handed me a drink and i took a huge sip. It burned my throat but i am used to pain. The taste however was vodka and punch. Immediatley i started to get woozey and it was blurry around the edges of my eyes. 

                I walked over to the counter where the rest of the drinks were, pouring me more poison. I wanted to get wasted. Totally and utterly wasted to where i couldn't stand the hangover in the morning. I walked over to the dance floor and immediatley started to dance with everyone, making the blonde boy holler. i let out a drunken laugh. 

          After a few more glasses of punch of vodka and one smoke of pot, i coudln't remember anything. 

  "Had fun?" I heard a voice say and i realized i was in a bed. Oh, my God. I tried to sit up but the headache was unbearable. I was only able to open my eyes to see the blonde boy from the party, laying in the bed with me with nothing on but some boxers. I let out a scream as he started stroking my arm. 

"WHO THE HELL ARE YOU?!?!" I didn't even care about the headache anymore. The only thing i cared about was remembering what exactly happened last night. OKay, i was at Eddie Newman's party, and i got drunk. I remember this boy calling me sexy and giving me a drink and i immediatley chugged it down. It was all coming back to me. He date- raped me. Oh my God. I immediatly start to hyperventilate as he starts for the door, not even looking back. 

           Tears flooded my eyes and i couldn't even concentrate on what was going on because of the devil of a headache i had. My entire body felt at least a thousand pounds and it so hard to get up. I drag myself to the doorway and decide that it wasn't even worth it anymore. Nothing was. I slide down the wall and ball myself up and just let it all out. All the pain i ever felt, i let it out in tears. You might have thought a poor animal was dying, i was crying so hard. I realized all i was wearing was my black bra and panties but i didn't care. I don't even think i cared about anything anymore. 

"Sarah?" i heard a familiar voice say as i was immediatley in someone's arms. I pick up my heavy head to see Eddie with concerning eyes. 

"Oh, God. What happened?" He freaked. I cried in his chest and he looked down at my half naked body. 

"Who did this?" But i didn't even feel like answering him. I just wanted to die right here. Right now.