No Passing Through

Chapter 18: Change My Mind

A/N: so what's up? i know i haven't been active for quite a while.. I've been really busy specially now that school is coming up in just 5 days... I think.

So here's another chapter just for all the PayVans fans out there with a touch of some PIall. :)

Enjoy!!

Xoxo, yourworstnightmaree

(Vanessa's POV)

"Ahhhhh. I think I'm going crazy!" I pulled out all of my hair. I literally look like a freaking witch now. And I was walking back and forth inside the bathroom. This is Liam James Payne's freaking fault. I told Zayn that I'll leave my feeling for a few days to test if I was really in love with him. But my mind was going ballistic. I avoided Liam for days. Even skipping meals and going out of the house as much as possible. And hopefully he won't get suspicious about this whole thing.

The stupid game that we had yesterday only made things worse than they already is. We were evidently forced to pair up and well yeah, Liam was my only option. In all honestly, I was nervous and uneasy at first but then the game went great and we were all just having fun under the sun.

But after the game, I pretended as if nothing happened. I shut him out. I refuse to make eye contact or even stand close to him. Am I being unreasonable? Or am I overreacting? It's just a kiss and well I do like him? Right?

"Breathe Vanessa. Breathe." I say in between breaths and stared at myself on the huge mirror. I sighed heavily and pinned the last strand of hair into place before reaching for the door knob.

Stepping out of the bathroom, the first thing that caught my eye was Liam who was staring intently at me like he's the first and last person who'll ever look at me like that.

"Hhh--eey Li." I stutter the words out trying to avoid his gaze. He doesn't say a word, instead his eyes were still grazing at me. Urging me to look at him, urging me to confirm my feelings for him. But I didnt go this far to just give up and allow myself to fall. I am not that type of girl.

I was looking everywhere but his face and I noticed that he was moving menacingly slow towards me. I freaked out a little so I tried to squash the panic welling up inside me.

He takes another step and I unconsciously shuffled backwards, clamping my lips together. The hard wooden door behind me touched my back and I am officially cornered by the one and only, Liam Payne. The guy who kissed me on our first date.

"Vanessa." he breaths my name and I melt at the sound of it. My back was now flat against the door and he leisurely stretched his strong, tanned arms across the door, barring me from moving away from him or getting inside the bathroom.

I shut my eyes tight, taking a deep breath I say, "What Liam?"

His brown pleading eyes focused on mine, "This is killing me." he said the words as if it really does pains him.

My face is inches away from his and my heart was banging against my chest I'm sure he can hear it, "I-- Liam.. you-- I don't know." I cannot form the thoughts swarming in my head into words.

"I know kissing you on our first date was a dick move." he said, shaking his head.

"Yeah, it was." I mutter. "It was a mistake." I continue, trying to push past him.

He grabs my hand and push me against the door once again, "It was never a mistake, Nessa." he said, his face looked frustrated and sad at the same time.

When I refuse to say something, he spoke, "It was the best thing that ever happened to me." he whispered and with those words my heart soars with happiness.

I smiled at him, and a tear runs down his cheek and I wiped it away with my thumb, "I'm sorry if I've been so hard on you. It's just that well, you surprised me. And you keep doing that." I said and a smile was now spreading across his lips.

"But trust me, that kiss was pure bliss and it was the best kiss ever. That kiss was like it was my first ever kiss in the world." I said, hot tears now starting to stream down my face.

He gently wiped it with his hands, "Don't cry."

"Listen, Liam. Just give me some time to think things through and when I'm ready I would tell you everything, every feeling, every emotion that I choose to hide." I whispered and he removes his arms and drops it at his side.

"I understand." he muttered, his voice a little sad.

"Can you do that for me?" I asked, looking at him.

He looks at me with so much emotions, I thought he was about to kiss me again and when he leans in and whispers in my ear, "Take as long as you like. I'm a man who can wait, Vanessa."

I nod and with a final smile I walked off leaving him there.

(Liam's POV)

Vanessa. She's the only girl that made me feel like this. Just by hearing her name, I feel butterflies on my stomach fluttering. Yes, I've dated and have been in a relationship with other girls but she's really different. I'm going to wait as long as I can. And if she becomes mine, I swear I won't let her go.

"You alright?" A familiar voice suddenly echoes on my ears snapping me out of my inner thoughts.

"I'm great." I tell Zayn with a sly smile plastered on my face.

"It seems like you've been thinking too much mate." He said, his eyes focused on a book he's reading.

"Nah. It's just the thing with Vanessa. You know." I muttered on.

"You shouldn't have kissed her. Dumb move aye?" He smirks at me making me chuckle.

"Yeah yeah. I really felt like a total douche." I smile at my completely idiotic self.

"Well you should be! You ruined her first kiss!" He hollered.

"First kiss? You mean.... Vanessa never kissed anyone before? As in ever? Not even a peck?" I asked stunned and I suddenly felt more guilt coming from my insides.

"Yup! I think she had a few relationships before but no kissing. She wants her first kiss to be special." Zayn said shaking his head in disbelief.

"Impossible!" I suddenly blurt out my thoughts.

"She did it so it's possible. You idiot. Let her think. Things will fall in place soon whenever she's ready. Just give her some space to figure out that letting you go would mean letting her whole world go." Zayn patted my back and went inside.

He's right. I should give Nessa some time to think. Was I really her first kiss? If yes then damn, I really ruined things for her.

I heard noises coming outside. I went over to the balcony and saw Trish cuddled up beside Niall. They are having the cute "i love you more" fights.

"I love you!" Niall told Trish while stroking her hair.

"I love you more" Trish said giggling.

"Impossible. I love you the most" Niall again told Trish with a smile.

"I love you more than my own life" Trish sincerely said making our little leprechaun blush like a tomato.

"Stop blushing!! You're making me blush too!! It's too cheesy for you, I know." Trish continued laughing shyly.

"Just shut up and kiss me, Patricia Marie Parker." Niall replied killing the space between him and Trish's lips.

I want that kind of replationship where you don't say nothing to each other but still enjoy each others company. Where you won't admit to anybody how inlove the two of you are but show it anyway. I want that. Skinny love.

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A/N: promise i'll update again if i'm not busy. next chapter......

HarLey!!