Sacred Pro | Capital STEEZ Story

EARTH SCIENCE

I leaned my back against the headboard as I drank from my water bottle that was placed on my nightstand. It was another night where I'd woken myself up by the amounts of nightmares I had. The fact that Steez could've been dead and the story about his dad left me half traumatized. I couldn't get my mind off of it. Every time I randomly imagine life without him and it was the most frightening image ever.

I gulped the water down and sighed when I put it back on my nightstand. I got up and decided to get some fresh air on the balcony, carefully to not wake Robby who was sleeping in the other room. I slowly took steps as I put on my black bathrobe that went along with my laced shorts and hem. I pushed the door open and shivered once I felt the freezing night air hit me. It was winter, pretty stupid of me to forget that. But I just had a lot on my mind. It's kinda frustratin' once you think you've left everything in the past and can finally move on, and there happens something else that kinda takes you back to the past again. It's like it all repeats itself but this time even worse because it was someone I really started to develop deep and genuine love for. And of course I've never stopped thanking the gods for sparing his life and giving him the opportunity to still be here and continue on with his life because he has a promising future. But the scene kept replaying in my head.

I sighed as I briefly closed my eyes and crossed my arms and legs while I sat on the bench on the balcony. The cold breeze flowing through the loose strands of my curls that got free from the high bun I wore. I closed my eyes and dwelled on the feeling of the moment. Enjoying the nature and the absence of human life.

"Pssh!" I jumped as I heard the sudden sound and looked around, seeing nothing. I told myself it was just a leaf or something else, even though it sounded like someone was standing close to me. I closed my eyes again and took a deep breath and the cold air refreshed my lungs. "Pssh!" my eyes shot open and I looked around again, not scared anymore. This time it was clearer and I swore I saw something move in the backyard. I got up from my seat and leaned on the balcony railing, looking around. As if on cue, a figure walked from out a dark spot in the direction of me until I could see it clearly. "What the hell are you doing here?" I asked, confused. "I felt like visiting you." His answer was. I sighed, "It's like 4AM, Steez."

"I – I know. But I felt lonely, I don't know. I just wanted to be somewhere and as if you could hear my thoughts, you came outside." He spoke, his voice innocent and his face illuminated by the dim street lights. "Come in." I said as I walked back to the door and opened it. I waited for Steez to come in and it took a minute before I heard his footsteps. As he came in, I gave him a tight hug and went back to my room.

"What's wrong?" I asked as I sat Indian-style on my bed. He shrugged as he stared at his socks, leaning against the headboard. "I felt lonely and you know what happens when I'm alone. I need to be with someone often, I guess. I mean it's just that I couldn't sleep so I was caught thinking again." He admitted.

I nodded in understanding. "Well, it's good. You can come over whenever you want, know that." I said.

He nodded, "Thanks. And sorry, I didn't mean to wake you up or something, or to scare you." He apologized. "It was nothing. I wasn't sleeping anyways." I said, as I stared at the clock. "So.. it's almost 5 in the morning, let's try to get some sleep." I suggested. He sighed and stared at me. "You're the best, man. You're always there for me and don't mind anything." He said. I pressed my lips together and smiled after. "Of course, Steez. I'll be there for you always, it's cause I love you and you're there for me too. You deserve it, you don't even know how much you've changed my life and those from the Pros. You mean a lot to all of us. I'm thankful to have you as–  you know, just to have you in my life." I said, internally confused by my use of words. He chuckled, "Aw, I love you too. Sleep well." "Good night."