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Part 3

I woke up with tears stains on my cheeks and pillow. I must have fallen asleep from all of the crying. I see the doctor walking towards the door, with the same sympathetic look in his eyes...things are just getting worse for me. 

"Hello Harper, how are you feeling today?" Doctor Cope asked.

"I'm broken" was the only thing I managed to say before the nurses ran into the room calling the doctor because there was an emergency. It didn't bother me that the doctor left it just bothered me how he returned.

The same sympathetic eyes, same sympathetic smile. I knew he had to tell me something and I knew it wasn't good news. 

"Harper, I'm really sorry to tell you this but...your...your sister has a blood clot in her brain and we can't seem to remove it" the doctor spoke.

"What do you mean you can't seem to remove it? Are you kidding me? Please tell me your joking! Your doctors for god sake and you can't remove a blood clot? What the hell is wrong with you?" I said in a shouting, yet still fairly quite tone. 

"We've tried to remove it but if we go any further into her skull she will die and that isn't what we want". He helplessly replied.

"You need to try harder then don't you? Figure out a new way to remove it. I don't know just keep my sister alive" I reply now getting angry.

"We've tried Miss but it just doesn't seem to be working and I deeply regret saying this but your sister isn't going to make it" the second lot of bad news. 

Tears, upon tears, upon even more tears. That sentence hit me like a ton of bricks...again. 

...THREE DAYS LATER...

It been four days since my dad died and two days since my sister passed. As it stands now the only thing that's keeping me alive is my mum and the fact that if I die on her she will be crushed. 

I haven't slept since the first time I cried myself to sleep. I know I should still look after myself but what's the point?

The doctors have been so kind and caring to me and I hope they know that when I'm in the right mood I will begin to appreciate it. I haven't been able to see my mom because she is constantly being checked on and having tests. The nurses also said that it's best if I stay in bed and rest but that's all I've been doing along with crying. I just want to see my mom and give her a hug and hear her say that everything will be fine when really deep down inside I know it won't be...