Love Me (Revamped)

Insight on August and KaiAsia

Kai'Asia POV

I hate love.

Yes I said it, I hate love and I hate the idea of love. Why should I beleive in love when the world is filled with hate. You have people killing eachother everyday so why should I believe that love even exists.

My mom and dad are divorced. Both cheated on eachother for about 2 years and still was with eachother up until the end. I feel like if you can't be with that one person, then you don't need to be in a relationship at all.

Ever since the divorce , my mom has been so mean and spiteful. She trys to bring me down in every single way. Not physically, but emotionally. After you hear that you are fat, slouchy, and ugly, you start to believe it. My dad says I'm beautiful all the time but I just don't see it.

I want to stay with my dad so bad but my mom is just holding on to me just to get footstamps. It's a damn shame that she doesn't love me and I really widh she did

That's when I fell in love with cooking. I felt like I could escape the world in a sense. I knew I could be me without questions in the kitchen. That is the ONLY thing I love. Everything goibg on in my life leads me to believe otherwise.

So why should I believe in love again? My own mother hates me and I get bullied at school everyday and I feel that senior year would be no different.

Im just fat and nasty and nothing will ever change that.

No one will ever love me . Im mean look at me. I know it and I can't change that.

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August POV

I feel like love is a beautiful thing man.

You see I'm a sucker for that lovey dovey romance type of shit. I want to fall in love . I want someone that I can spend the rest of my life with. I want to be able to tell her everything.

I want that 'stay on the phone all night' type of love. I know that shit only happens in books and movies but I can only dream man. I have a big heart man.

Im waiting for the right girl to come along. Im a virgin and I have never been kissed. Shocker right. My friends back in New Awlins all say that I weird as hell but Im just waiting for the right person you know . I have respect for women. I'm just waiting on the right person to give my love to.

My mom says moving from New Awlins to Baton Rouge will give me , ha, and mah la brother Christian a fresh start. You see my father was walking down the streets one night and got gunned down. That shit hurt my heart man because I love ma pops. He was was a really good man.

I miss him so fucking much man and that shit hurts.

My moms tryna hold it together for me and Christian but I see that that shit is hurting her deeply. That's when I fell in love with cooking. It took my mind off of alot of shit.

I feel as if I can be myself and express myself through cooking without being judged and I love that.

You see somebody like me, and you would think " Oh, he flunking school " and " Oh he a drug dealer but I actually the exact opposite.

I love school.

Yea I know ' Who and the hell loves school?', but I do. I love getting lost in doing work . I have all A's and im in AP classes. Alot of stereotypes come across are pure bullshit.

You can look anyway you want and do anything you set your mind to. That shit doesnt make who you are.

I feel like moving will be a fresh start and I have a feeling that this move will be very interesting.

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I put this together so you can really see where August and Kai are coming from. I want you to see why they are so different but so similar in some ways . The next update will be chapter one.