In this Moment

Chapter Twenty-Five

****Niall's POV****

It's been one week, a whole seven days, without her, but what time says seven days, it feels like seven lifetimes. I can't even think straight without her, I'm constantly analyzing every single detail I did, everything I said, anything that could make her leave. I'm racking my brain trying to figure it out, and I just can't solve the problem.

We we're sitting in a small room in the studio of some morning talk show preparing for an interview that we we're going to do in a few minutes. Normally I would be buzzin before an interview, but I couldn't even bring myself to speak to anyone this morning. The lads were all eating at the snack table while I sat in a distant chair, bending over, elbows on knees and my face in my hands.

I felt a tap on my shoulder and saw Zayn with a plate full of food and a small smile on his face. He started to rub my shoulder trying to comfort me, "Hey Ni do you want some food?"

"No thanks." I said going back to my previous stance.

"Niall, you've eaten barely anything in the past five days. Come on." he pushed.

"I'm not hungry!" I sort of yelled at him, getting up and walking outside.

I leaned against the brick wall outside the studio and starred up to the grey sky, ruffled my hair and rubbed my face. I just couldn't shake this feeling, I couldn't forget her. I pulled out my phone till I found her contact 'Rach :* <3' I still hadn't change the name she put in my phone. I pressed the call button and held the phone up to my ear, hoping her voice would reach the other end.

It just rang until the automated message voice sounded, I cursed and then waited for the beep and then began my message, "Hey ba-I mean Rachel. I just thought I should call you since we haven't talked since the night you left. I really miss you Rachel, whatever I did, I'll fix it, I'll do anything for you, I really do miss you. I'm going crazy here without you; I need you here so I can hold you and kiss you. I miss you so much, I love you Rachel."

I ended the call and looked back up at the sky and felt a tear stream down my face, and as I wiped the tear away it began to rain. "Niall come on were on in five," Harry said ushering me inside.

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I basically sat there the entire time, not even bothering to look at the interviewer or the camera, I nodded my head a few times but that was it. Towards the end the interviewer asked who in the group had girlfriends, Liam, Louis,and Zayn raised there hands.

"Now Louis your still dating Eleanor right." she asked.

"Yes." he replied with a cheeky grin.

"And Zayn your still with Perrie correct?"

"Yes." he also replied.

"Now, Liam I heard that you broke up with Danielle, who are you dating now?" she asked leaning a little closer.

"Well me and Danielle did break up. I am now dating Denayah, we have been dating for almost six months now." he smiled cheeky, I knew Dena really made him happy, and I was genuinely happy for him.

"And how are you guys doing?" the interviewer asked being nosy, but hey, that's their job.

"Really good actually, I'm madly in love, and things couldn't be going better than it is now." he finished with a smile as the rest of the boys cooed him.

"And Niall what about you. Weren't you dating this Rachel girl." they projected a picture of me and her on the screen behind us. It was when we were at Disney and I first told her that I liked her, we were kissing. Just looking at that picture I had to choke back the tears. "Rachel Johnson, what happened?"

"W-we, we're just friends  now." I replied lowering my head trying to hide my emotions, while the lads rubbed my back.

"Shame. You were a cute couple." she commented as she finished the interview.

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We walk to the back when it was over and all I could do was constantly look at my phone, waiting for some sort of response. I ruffled my hair over and over again, just going crazy. Liam saw this and came over to talk to me.

"It's going to be ok Ni." he patted my shoulder, trying to reassure me, but this only made me more mad.

"How do you know!" I snapped.

"Because I understand what you're going through." he said. That's when I lost it.

"No you don't! You fuckin don't! Have you ever been so in love with someone that no matter what you did you wouldn't ever be able to forget about them! Have you ever thought that you were in the best point of the relationship and then you hit rock fuckin bottom! Have you ever experienced the feeling when you're about to propose to the love of your life and then she walks out of you! No explanation! Fucking nothing! Have you ever been so heartbroken, that you can barely function without that one person in your life."

Tears were falling down my face and I couldn't stop them, "Damn it Liam have you! No! I can't just forget about her!

I stood there facing him standing in the silence, and saw that everyone else was starring at us. Even the lads, and they all wore sadden, shocked faces. I turned back to Liam, "I can't just forget about her Li, she stole my heart." I finished quietly and walked out the door as Liam called after me.

It was pouring now but I didn't care, I walked along the wall a few feet from the door and then slid down the wall sitting in the rain. I just sat there, crying, trying to figure out what went wrong.