Chasing Darkness

Chapter 25

It's been forever! I found the motivation to write.

Mood: Give me Love - Ed Sheeran

I find myself face to face with the lake, our lake.. Donnys..Nicolas..Marcus.. Our hang out. A thousand pictures flash through my mind, the memories we made here together, the laughs and the tears, the hardship and the heartbreak. It all began here.. And it ends here.. Doesn't it..?

I slowly make my way to the edge of the the lake; the only sound is the leaves crackling underneath me and the wind blowing it's melody in my ear as I make my way to the cliff overlooking the lake. I sit on the edge, letting out a relieved sigh; brushing my hair past my fave, only then so I realize I have tears slowly falling down my face.

I look up at the sky and smile as I let the tears just fall. I felt as peace but yet, I still had a burning pain in my heart. How could one person make me feel so many mixed emotions..? Was he really worth all this pain?
I could be moving on, I could be enjoying my life, I could be hand in hand with someone who actually cared for me. But instead I was here shedding tears for what? A guy who's going to keep screwing me over time and time again, and I just allowed it to happen..

My eyes shot open as I sat up; I crawled over to the edge and looked at my messy reflection. Who was this person? This girl isn't me. This is someone who was changed and corrupted, and yet, I didn't regret it at all. I continued to stare at my reflection for a good while before I stood up and walked to where I had left me bag, full of my belongs I had at Donny's home. I took my cellphone out and called him.

I waited.. And waited.. And waited, then I hear it, the calming deep voice I found comfort in.
"Donny.." I spoke softly, almost in a whisper, hoping he heard me. Almost instantly he replied to me in a concerned tone. "Rose, where are you?" Instead of replying to this question I replied with a statement. "I want to dye my hair Donny, and I want to get a lip piercing, and I want a tattoo and I-" Donny immediately cut me off.
"Woah, hold your horses! dying your hair? okay, but the piercing, tattoo? Where is this coming from..?" On the other side of the phone Donny was sitting on the floor leaning against his bedroom wall; brushing his fingers through his hair to calm himself down.

"I.. I've been wanting to do these for a while... But I never did. Certain things made me forgot the supposedly crazy thoughts, and okay maybe the tattoo is a tad bit too far but I do want to dye my hair.. I also want to cut it and I want that lip piercing.." I answered him calmly as I walked away from everything I once knew, everything that once was, well, my everything.

Donny sighs and the lines goes silent for a while before he clears his throat and gives in to me. "Okay..okay, but only, only if you come back. Please, let me help you Rose-" I cut Donny off immediately, if I was going to change I was going to do it my way, "Donny, please don't call me that anymore. Call me Sam.. Please?" One again the line goes dead silent.

"Okay, Sam, well, haven't used that name in a while huh..? Okay, where are you? I'll come get you and then we can go home and discuss.." Donny continued to ramble on pointless things I wasn't really interested in, I agreed and told him where I was, before hanging up I told him, "Oh and Donny.. Thanks for, dealing with me." I could practically imagine the smiles on the guff-balls face as he chuckled into the phone, "Anything for you." Then the line really went dead.

Maybe things aren't really that bad, maybe, maybe I can change and finally be happy.. Maybe.. Just maybe.. I can have a 'happy ending'.

Or maybe I was wrong and there are no such things as happy endings.