Field Of Darkness

I Hate Everything About You

I mattered so much to you that you gave me my first real bruise
I remember all the times I was kept awake
From all the stupid excuses that you would make
I remember all the tears I uselessly cried
And the blood I spilled , trying to convince myself that you hadn't lied

And I was there for you when you needed to complain
I was there for you when in your heart was only pain

But I wonder
Where the hell were you
when I was at my worst ?
When I needed a shoulder to cry on?
When I needed someone to finally see me , to breathe me in
But you always breathed me out
And you said you "loved" me
So I wonder where were you when your dumb excuses sugarcoated your lies?
Love doesn't just fall from the sky
I'm never coming back
Why don't you ask yourself why?
I hate everything about you
I shouldn't have apologized the first time I had said it
Cause I was right to hate you
Don't know why I pushed that feeling away

But now
I wonder where the hell were you?
Don't say you couldn't be here
Everything's possible if you want it to
I'm never coming back
I hate everything about you