(A/N for the next few entries/chapters, it's just going to be the entry part. I'll bring the three boys back in later)
michael came over today...we just hung out and watched movies. i feel like we're the closet out of the four of us, i mean, no one else will put up with my random changes in mood, and i'm really the only one that lets him just hug randomly and cuddle with.
calum keeps asking if we're dating...we're not...at least.....no, we're not.
i'm sorry, i tend to write like i talk, so if i trail off, or start to ramble or something, i'm sorry. really.
anyways, no, michael and i are not dating, i like girls.....i think...i don't know. i kind of have to. my mum would kill me if i ever even mentioned the idea of me liking boys...
oh! ashton and i got into a fight
he called me selfish for not going with him, calum, and michael to the movies. i didn't want to seem selfish, i was just tired. and not in the best state....
i didn't mean to be selfish
i really didn't
i never thought i was selfish
maybe i am
i mean, taking time for myself instead of going out with my friends
i guess that could be selfish...
oh well, calum stood up for me when he found out about that. he told ashton that i had every right to stay home if i was tired, and that i shouldn't have to go if i didn't want to.
ashton let up after that
i don't know what's going on with him. he's seemed more short-tempered lately.
i don't know....i should probably go now. i promised ash that i'd meet him for ice cream
Hey guys, sorry about not updating for a while. I think I might to a double update today, so yay I guess.
Anyway, updates on my stories are either going to be more infrequent, or more than normal
and i have my reasoning.
My parents have taken my phone away, for god knows how long. It could be a few months, or even a year. I think that they're leaning more towards a year, so...yeah
They found out about all of my internet friends, and me being suicidal, so they're taking away everything aside from my computer, and the family tablet
So yeah, get ready for weird update schedules.
I'm sorry guys...really
also, if you ever need to talk, feel free to message me, okay? okay.
Now, if you wouldn't mind, comment your thoughts on this story so far?
Okay, bye...Xx
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Fanfic(lowercase intended) luke's gone, and has been for over a year, but when michael, ashton, and calum find a notebook full of letters -journal entries, apologies, and multiple suicide notes that weren't used- that luke had left for them, what secrets...
