I Still Love You

Chapter 3: Out Of My Safe Haven

Suddenly my alarm went off signalling that it was time to get up. Yet again I had stayed up all night thinking about him. But it was okay before because it had been the summer holiays but today was the day that they all went back to school.

Today I would see him again the first time since he had said all those things to me and broken my heart. And the worst thing about it all was that he didn't even do it face to face it was through Facebook and text.

I got out of my comfy bed an made m way into the bathroom. I turned on the hot water measured the temparature and got in. I let the water soothe me and relax all my tense muscles. I finished my warm shower and started to get ready.

Usually girls take time to get ready to find something appealing to wear. However, this was not the case for me, I was dreading getting dressed because I had to try and find something to wear that disguised how much weight I had lost over the course of the summer. I finally decided on a pair of black ankle length leggins and a baggy jersey jumper. Then I put on some foundation and a ton of conceler to hide my dark circles courtsey of not sleeping for the last few months aswell as some mascara and eyeliner to try and reduce the redness and puffiness of my eyes. Finally I pulled on my pair of black converses and grabbed my school bag and went downstairs.

 Mum and dad sat at the table drinking coffee and sharing the newspaper. As usual they ignored me as I walked in and grabbed myself a granola bar and a bottle of my favourite lemon and lime flavoured water. I sat and ate breakfast in complete silence not even bothering to greet my parents as I knew that I would ever get is a grunt and a nod in response.

Looking at the clock I realized that I had seconds to finish her breakfast otherwise I'd be late, I wolfed down the remainder of my breakfast and walked out the front door. Icould walk to school as I didn't live too far from the school and the weather was lovely. I felt a bit hot uder hr jersey but knew I had to leave it on to avoid all the unwanted questions about my weight.

I made my way into school just as the bell rang indicating that it was time for registeration. I walked in to find everyone sitting and chattering away making up for the lost time. I sat down quitely not wanting to be part of any conversation. My form tutor made her way in smiling and welcoming everyone back and hoping that they all had a nice break. She took the register and handed out ot everyone their new timetables.

At once chatter filled the classroom as everyone started to compare lessons to see what teachers they had and to see what friends they shared classes with. I looked at her own timetable hoping that they had no lessons together. The bell rang again to signal the end of registeration and the commencing of period 1. Oh joy I sighed to myself as I acknowledge that first lesson was General Knowledge.

I made my way into the class and took a seat right at the back. Slowly the class began to fill and all my friends came in giving me hugs and nattering away about their summer. I didn't really take in what they were saying only occassionally nodding or murmuring a yes or no to try and be polite and make it seem as if I were listening. I felt like I was on auto pilot. I watched as slowly the last of the class piled in. Just when I thought that everyone was present one more person walked throught the door. He scanned the classroom and then he saw me and for the first time in six month those light blue eyes looked straight into mine...