I Still Love You

Chapter 7: The Naked Truth

This is dedicated to SteffyBrooks=] thank you for being my rock and motivating me to write on =].

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I looked up at him again and he was just sitting there with a triumphant smirk on his face. Because he knew ; he knew that he was the reason that I was upset.

I glanced at up at the clock and mercifully there was only 10 minutes left until the end of the lesson. Thank God for that I thought and breathed out a sigh of relief whilst wiping away the tears from my eyes nonchalantly.

The bell rang. Finally I said out aloud as I jumped out of my desk and made my way out the door. I rushed out because I couldn’t stand being in the same room as him. I couldn’t stand looking at him and being reminded of all the hurt and the pain that he put me through.

As I made my way through the hallway my friend Kyla jumped me from behind giving me a little fright. ‘Crap you scared the life outta me Kyla don’t do that again’ I yelled trying to seem angry but smiling. ‘Sorry but it aint my fault you are a scared little thing now is it?’ she said whilst pulling me into a hug.

Kyla. What can I say about her she is probably the only one that has supported me throughout all this and not judged me and called me a stupid emotional fool. Despite the fact that she has never been in  love before she has been more helpful to me than any of my so called ‘friends’. It’s because of her and her fun loving nature that I’m still surviving otherwise I woulda just curled up in a ball in my bed and never have left it.

‘How have you been ?’ she enquired smiling but then frowned as she got a proper close look at my eyes. ‘Nothing Kyla I’m fine’ I said and plastered a smile on my face like I usually do when I need to make it seem as if I’m okay. ‘Seriously? You’re really gonna try and lie to me. Haven’t you learnt that you can’t lie to me Jenna I can see it in your eyes you’ve been crying’ she concluded. ‘Okay fine I’ll tell you what happened I might as well tell you know cos I know for a fact I’d end up telling you after school was over for the day anyways.’ I replied.

I pulled her towards the school exit ‘you have a lesson now?’ I asked her? ‘Nope’ said Kyla popping the p. ‘Good. Lets go talk at the marina’ I said as we made our way outside.

The marina was this amazing place that I found whilst wondering one day. It was surrounded by water and I could see the skyline from there. Not only had that it also had the most amazing view of the sunset ever. Whenever I’m sad or upset or just need to have some time to myself I go there. It’s like my own little world where I can go to that reminds me of the simple beauties of the world. The soothing sound of the waves calm me down and seeing the sunset just reminds me that tomorrow’s a new day. A clean fresh day with a clean fresh start.

We made our way down there and sat down on the ground; where we had a direct view of the skyline. ‘Okay we are here now spill’ said Kyla. ‘Alright, alright’ I said and began to explain to her what happened. By the time I was done I was sobbing my heart out onto her coat. She held me in a hug rubbing soothing circles on my back. This is why I’d left the school to tell Kyla what happened cos I knew I wouldn’t be able to control my tears once I started to tell her about it. ‘Aww Jenna I’m so sorry I couldn’t be there’ she cooed sympathetically. ‘It’s not your fault’ I said. ‘You couldn’t help it we don’t even have that class together’. ‘I know but I just wish I could have been there for you Jenna I know how much you love him. I can see it in your eyes. It’s like ever since he left you you’ve been like a zombie it’s like you breathe but you don’t live. It’s like you’re always on auto pilot. Even when you smile the smile doesn’t reach your eyes. Looking at you it’s hard to believe that three years ago you where the fun loving care-free girl who lived life to the full. Look at you know you look like you’ve lost all that matters to you in the world’ she said. ‘I have lost all that mattered to me in the world Kyla. I lost him. I have this constantly gnawing pain in my heart all the time that just doesn’t seem to go away no matter how much I pray to God. Every day I think that the pain will just take over all my body inch by inch and that it’ll engulf me and take me away in to the jaws of death but it doesn’t. I have to wake up and live with that pain day after agonising day. And sometimes when I have good days where I convince myself that I’ll be okay all it takes is one look into his eyes to know that I won’t be okay again. I said through the tears. Kyla never said anything after that. Jut held me in a tight hug soothing me and crying with me.

After having cried what I felt was a river of tears we finally got up to make our way back to school. It was time for break when we got back. Kyla told me she had to go off and left me with all our friends promising me that she’ll be back by the end of break so we can make our ways to our lesson together as we had the same lesson next period double science oh joy (note the sarcasm),

****Kyla’s POV****

I left Jenna with our friends and went in search for Jason. It’s about time some one put him in his palce and told him how much of an arrogant bastard he was. I found him sitting on the benches at the back school with his friend Joe. They were both in deep conversation so probably didn’t see me as I approached them.

‘Can I speak  to you for a second please Jason?’ I said. ‘What about?’ he enquired. ‘I’ll answer that when we are speaking in private not here’ I said and shot Joe a look at the same time. ‘Alright fine’ he said and got up to move to another bench.

He sat down and I sat opposite him. ‘What did you wanna talk to me about?’ he said. ‘I wanted to talk to you about Jenna’ I told him. ‘Oh here we go’ he said. ‘What did she put you up to this?’ he said. ‘No she didn’t’ I replied rather aggressively. ‘The poor thing doesn’t even know that I’m talking to you. What have you done to her and more importantly why have you done that to her? What did that girl ever do to you?’ I asked him. I thought that he’d take this conversation seriously but to my surprise he started to laugh in my face. ‘That emotional fool couldn’t ask me that herself she had to send you did she?’ he said after he’d finally managed to stop laughing. ‘For God’s sake tell her to just get over it. I can do what I like to whoever I like I don’t have to answer to you’ he said. I was absolutely shocked. This was the ‘amazing guy’ that Jenna had fallen for? This guy? Damn he was an arrogant piece of shit and I can’t believe that she had fallen for this guy. From the way he was talking and from his lack of remorse for the way he acted he didn’t seem to have a single good attributes let alone any ‘amazing’ ones.

Anger fumed through me at what he had just said about Jenna and at that point I was just ready to explode. So I did what any good friend would do. I let him have it. ‘You know what?’ I began with a menacing voice due to the high level of anger I was feeling ‘a guy like you doesn’t deserve to have a girl like Jenna love you like that. Here you are bitching about her when you have no right to because she probably didn’t do anything to hurt you well, not on purpose anyways. And there she is lying to her friends, putting you on this high pedestal making you seem like some sort of perfect angel rather than the arrogant selfish pig you are. And to think that you guys use to be friends at one point. If this is how you treat your friends and a person who you allegedly love I’d hate to see what you do to someone you dislike. That girl still loves you like crazy. She still cares about you. All she ever did was love you. Why are you punishing her for that? ‘ I said. I saw the smirk that he had on his face disappear as I said that to him. He was about to open his mouth to say something but was interrupted by the bell. ‘I gotta go’ he said and walked off but as he walked off I could finally see remorse in his eyes.

****Jenna’s POV****

Where is Kyla gone I wondered.  The bell rang over 5 minutes ago. I looked around and saw her and Jason making their way towards the building. My heart started beating in my chest as he came further towards me. He looked up at me. I excepted to see hatred for me in his eyes but I didn’t. I saw hurt in his eyes. He held my gaze for a few more seconds before he walked towards the building. Kyla came over and smiled at me. ‘Come on then let’s go to double science then’ she said rolling her eyes.

I let her pull me towards the science block but my heart was aching from seeing him look like that he looked so sad and hurt. I wish I could do something to make him okay again…

Next time I write I’ll be writing in Jason’s point of view =]. But I hope you enjoy this chappy.