To a New Beginning (Klaroline FanFic)

Chapter 4

It has been 4 months. 4 long, terrible, painful months. I have tried so hard. Klaus is dead and I can't accept it. I haven't been able too. All I can do is hope that one day, I can move forward. I know that I won't be able to but that is what hope is for. Klaus is..was..my one true love. Nothing is going to change that. 

 I need a drink. Which is all i have been doing lately. Is drinking, both blood and alcohol. I poured some bourbon and started sipping it. 

That's when I heard a knock on my door. 

"Caroline?" I heard. I walked to the door and opened it. 

"Elena?" I asked. I dropped the cup and fell into her arms, sobbing. 

"Oh my god, Caroline. It's going to be okay." She said comforting me. 

"Caroline I am so sorry." She said. 

"I just don't get it. He was immortal. That means that he is not able to die! He can not be dead!" I said crying harder. 

"Caroline..I know I know, let it out." She pulled me to the couch and we sat. She poured me a new drink and handed it to me. "You need this" She said. 

"Thanks" I mumbled. 

We sat there the rest of the night, me crying and drinking, her comforting me. Elena has been a big help to me. This happens a lot. She comes over and holds me and I cry. She has tried to get me out but I can't move a muscle outside my building unless it is to feed. 

"Okay Caroline. It has been 4 months. I know that means nothing to us because we are vampires but we need to go out. We need to get you out. One night, that's all I am asking. i know it won't change anything and I know it won't get your mind offf of him but it will be good for you to start living again." Elena said. 

"Fine. I know. I can't keep you in here all to myself. I know that since you and Damon broke up things have been hard but thank you for helping me too." I said giving her a weak smile. 

"Your..issue..is much bigger thand Damon. Now go take a shower and get dressed." She said 

I did. I took a shower, did my makeup, twice because of my tears, and got dressed. I wore a tight red dress, a leather jacket, and black pumps. We went out and went to the bar. 

We had a night of dancing and singing and drinking. Alcohol and a few people. Elena has started drinking human blood, no kills, just drink, feed, erase. That's what we both do. 

We returned to the apartment at some time late at night, or I guess early the next day.. I walked in and fell asleep instantly on my bed. I dreamt, again, of Klaus. Of him and I, married. I woke up crying. Elena comforting me. 

"Shh shh Caroline, it'll be okay." 

"NO! It won't!" I yelled and she jumped. 

"Caroline I promise it will get better. The pain will go away, with time it will I promise you." 

"No Elena that is the problem. For 4 months the pain has not gone away. It will never go away! I loved him and I got him to love me. We had our epic romance and it was suppossed to continue forever!" I said yelling and crying. 

"Caroline, I know but it will heal." She tried again. but I knew it wouldn't. I let a few more tears out and then made up my mind. 

"No. It won't, i'm sorry Elena but I have to." I said 

"What? Caroline what are you talking about?" She said worried 

"I can't do this, I have to shut it off." 

"Caroline no!" Elena yelled at me. 

But it was to late. "Goodbye elena" I said and sped out of my room. 

My emotions were off.