Heart Vs. Mind: Colifer

Chapter 6: Regrets

Chapter 6:
I stopped letting my mind wander and enjoyed this extra time I was spending with Colin. Around 10, he turned the TV down and started holding my hand. It felt different this time, though. It didn't feel like a friendly gesture. It felt more-than friendly.

We were laying down now, I was exhausted and ready to sleep. I was still holding his hand, and at that moment, I didn't care. All I knew was that it felt good. I forgot about the consequences.

A few minutes later, I realized I'd dozed off. Colin awoke me.

"Jen, do you want to go get in your bed in the guest room or sleep out here?"

"I'll go to the guest room."

Now our hands were separated by reality. He led me to my room. I walked in and Colin was still standing by the door.

"Is everything okay?" I said.

He started to gaze into my eyes.

"Jen..."

He grabbed both my hands again and leaned in close to me. I could feel his breath on my face. Then, our noses started to touch. I denied that he was going to kiss me. It would just cause me more pain after I realized I couldn't have him.

Then, our lips touched. It was slow and soft, but meaningful. I never thought Colin felt this way about me. He pulled away and looked at me. He read my eyes and knew I wanted to kiss him again. I leaned in and kissed him until we were both breathless.

"Colin, this isn't Emma and Hook".

"I know", he said when he pulled away.

"We can't possibly do this."

I leaned in and kissed him again. It was Heart Vs Mind. I wanted to kiss him and be with him forever but I couldn't do it this way. He had to decide what he wanted; Helen or me.

But... we were still kissing. It felt so good to be in his arms, like he was the person I was destined to be with.

We were interrupted by a door opening and shutting.

I whipped around, and there she was.

Helen.